warning bells

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

i've found it a bit hard today, to keep the horrible disordered voices out of my head.

maybe it was tracking the food, i knew i would get obsessive about it but how else am i supposed to know what i'm eating?

i was planning to have a snack in the afternoon but skipped it (would have been a kiwi or a WW yogurt, frozen - by the way it's delish!), even though i was hungry and i could have done with it.

i probably overestimated my dinner in my nutrition tracker.

at least i made myself a proper lunch - healthy, filling and tasty.

it's just so hard to not measure my self worth with how i succeed in this diet. it's what's always happened and i just don't know how to let it go.

i know that if i don't eat enough, it's going to backfire. SLOW, is the key. and yet i can't shut this voice up, that now i'm losing weight i need to half my calories and exercise more more more.

argh. well i probably had somewhere around 1000-1200 calories today, and burnt off approx. 300-400 from cardio and strength training. i don't know if i'm doing it right, but i haven't skipped any meals and i had an apple for a morning snack.

tomorrow is going to be hard though - lunch will be ok, i'll eat something substantial with mum and sister. but in the evening i'll be alone and i know i will be so tempted to skip supper, as i find evening the hardest times to eat properly, if i'm in this mindset. i really hope i can cook myself something healthy and high in protein (carbs past lunchtime scare me), like some fish or chicken or tuna salad. anything.
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    I don't track my food every day. I try and track it a couple of times a week to make sure I am on track. Try and eat your healthy snacks that you had planned it will do your body the world of good. I've always found practising some yoga quite helpful to calm my mind and relax my body. Good luck sweetie. thinking of you. Love and hugs Helen xxx
    3912 days ago
    I agree with TDK.. as far as the food.. try making it ahead of time so that when you get home at night, you can just pull it out of the fridge. Also, add veggies -they are low in calories and guilt free!
    3912 days ago
    Just remember with dieting it is NOT all or nothing. If you ever do "mess up" or have a bad day with the diet, then just accept that it happened and look forward to do better the next day.

    If you ever feel like basing your self-worth on the diet and you feel down because you didn't do well a certain day, take a moment to write a list of things that you do do well. It can start out as easy and as obvious as "tie my shoes" and it can build from there. You will realize you do a lot more right than wrong.

    Just remember, breathe, step back from the situation, and realize any "mistake" is small compared to your whole life you have to do it right.
    3912 days ago
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