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There goes that stinkin' wake up call AGAIN!!!!

Saturday, March 22, 2008

I saw it again, just a few minutes ago. Here I am waking around the house cleaning, straightening, hanging up clothes when.....all of a sudden a caught a glimpse of myself in the darn mirror. Now I have on my workout clothes because I was going to attempt to go walking/jogging before noon after I dragged the clothes to the laundry room of the apartments next door. Also, while everyone was sleeping in including my hubby to be. Well it didn't happen with the workout, but I did eat the right breakfast that I was suppose to. Only to binge when it came time for lunch. Anyway, I not being a sour puss about that part though. What I am tripping out over is my size.

When I decided almost 3 yrs ago to get serious about my weight loss, I got bored with the aerobics DVDs and decided to take it outside to walking and then jogging. Ah man, did I love to be outside. But for some reason now, I don't think that I should be running outside because of my size!!!! Funny thing is, I weight about 5 lbs more then than I do now. I just didn't have this dang on gut nor these atrocious arms. Looking at myself in the mirror makes me wonder how in the world would I look to other people passing by? Would they be like, "man look at that big girl trying to run, what is she thinking"!!! Good question, what am I thinking. I have gained soooooo much weight that I don't even feel comfortable looking at myself in the mirror or thinking about how I look when I exercise!!! Okay so tell me is that crazy or am I just being normal. Either way it goes, I got the "ugh" wake up call from the ole' trusty mirror. Just to let me know that no matter how much I want to binge or not workout, or how much I want to eat the kids snacks and finish their food...um um don't do that. Stick to the old plan and be consistent like you said you were going to be. At least I can always count on the mirror to tell me the truth!!!!

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  • GODDESS_WORSHIP
    I think it's only normal to look in the mirror and see flaws in ourselves. Only the vain look in the mirror and see perfection staring back at them.

    But it sounds to me like you really just need to kickstart your exercise by... exercising! I know, it's a lot harder than it sounds. But I really think once you get started you'll get back into it. And if outside is where you feel most inspired, it's where you should try to be.

    As for what people on the street are thinking, try not to let it bother you. Most people in this world are oblivious to what goes on around them. Of those that aren't, some will be silently supporting you. And some may be silently questioning your sanity. But don't worry about that last group, as they're no influence on your life and they certainly won't be there to help you on your journey.

    Good luck. You CAN do it.
    3863 days ago
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