Oh the road is rough.....
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Wooo, they always say that situations get worse before they get better...right? Why is this? Man I am STILL STILL trying to hang in here. I know you guys probably say that is has only been some days and I'm already complaining about how hard it is. Nothing new to me, remember. Well I get easily distracted when I feel like I'm not in control. Example: I am a SAHM of 4, but one doesn't live with us. On the holidays my stepdaughter(who lives with me and her dad) has to go back to her "other guardian" and her brother comes here. Their mom is kind of like the babysitter-someone you let watch your kids for a couple of hours, but not really someone fit to take care of children on a regular bases. So I kind of get upset when my baby girl has to go visit and her brother has to go back after the holiday is over. My stepson need lots of attention and he doesn't get it when he isn't here. And even though their mom knows she needs to let him stay here to have a better chance at a wonderful childhood with more opportunities, she is too selfish to let him go. All along; the more we wait, the worse situations with him come about.
So in saying all of that, I feel a little overwhelmed because my baby doll has to go away for a week and she won't even get to wear her beautiful Easter dress and bows that I made her, nor get her Easter basket and have fun around here like we always do. On top of preparing for a departure and an arrival, I have clothes everywhere from doing laundry. And that just runs me up the wall. Having to take care of so many things, makes me deviate from my meal plans and skip out on my workouts. Even though I get up at 5 am to exercise, somehow I still don't do it.
But today will be different. I'm going to tackle these darn clothes, pack up my baby's bag, and I will get my 45 minutes of cardio in sometime today. I'm going to make that one step so HE can make two!!!!!