Thursday, March 20, 2008
Well, I've gotten back up to about 201. This week will probably not be my week. My weigh in is tomorrow. Unless I lose 2 pounds in less than 24 hours...I'll be at this for at least one more week.
I'm just going to be honest. I feel bad that everyone is so happy for me almost being out of the 200's...and I keep screwing it up. I feel guilty for getting all of this praise and still coming up short. I don't feel like I deserve to be praised for failing this many weeks in a row. I think that is what it boils down to.
In an attempt to look at a different number...I lost an inch from my hips from the beginning of February to now. That's one good thing. About 6 inches are gone from that area, in total. I wish this made me feel better.
I feel like I'm letting everyone down for not being in the 190's by now. I should be there. I was lazy, though. I just didn't exercise enough and there were a few too many days where I over did it by a few hundred calories.
I can't seem to push myself enough...but I plan to try and change this.
Today I'm going to reflect a bit and then start planning again. I'm going to plan a couple days worth of meals and snacks and exercise. Then I'm going to stick to it...and I'm not going to let laziness get in my way. I think I need to be tough on myself.
Hopefully this will get me back into that wonderful feeling of losing at least 1-2 pounds every week. I miss that feeling.