OK I get it!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
I lost it this week. I have had perfect kidney function since the transplant. A wee bit off and I go postal, helped on by deciding to quit taking my anti-depressants because i am getting off the drug that caused the depression. No i didn't do cold turkey, I cut it to half dose for a week 1st like the doc said. But I cried over nothing, spun in circles and didn't know where to start, and went kinda whiney on the hubby and teens. So sad, but it actually worked and they helped me...still are....so what am i doing wrong in raising kids who forget what I ask them to do, and a husband who does the same, they all say sorry sorry I am so sorry i forgot my chores....but good grief it is every week unless remind them I lose it. (old eggs, what should I expect LOL) My mother in law says hubby didn't train well as a kid and had focus problems in school, and I guess the teens had the same thing. Post it notes for them as well. Because I am no longer up to being the brain for everyone. We all need to adjust to the new me in this household, I am no longer the person with the photographic memory and oragized with every minute of my day to maximize my potential. In fact I kind of am happy about that. I like the new me better, I notice the little things, space out on the beauty around me, realize the house will get dirty again tomorrow, so why not hire someone to clean it. LOL Yah back on meds today, and called in the cleaning force to help me get caught up, I am so tired of being sick, when will this go away..........until then lets keep the priorities right, healthy eating, strength training so I can walk better. I like the ball exersizes, and started light weights on my upper body. The anti depressants have mega side effects also, but I realized one good one is the fact that the joint pain is gone, even with the half dose, so maybe i need it while I get stronger....
Oh yah and the fact i didn't hear back from the hospital means my test most likely came out fine this time around.