Wednesday, March 19, 2008
I've been battling fatigue recently, trying to pace myself so that I don't have to cut back on the 3x/wk. exercise routine I have going...and painting like a fiend in order to get ready for a deadline showing coming up in a couple of weeks. Drawing and painting is hard work for me because I have to turn off the left brain analytical part of me and just operate on right brain eye-hand coordination...it's not something I've done so consistently in my life that it is a "native language". But I operate back and forth between writing and image making, and they are often two different ways of thinking. Anyway, I'm learning to battle my fear of screwing things up and not getting them "perfect", but am forcing myself to just "do it" and go with the results. "Courage is not the absence of fear, but the ability to do what must be done in spite of the fear." Ooooh, that is a hard one to live out!
(The painting here is not one of my recent ones...did it a number of years ago, so it isn't even necessarily typical of my work except perhaps for mood and color, which is a bit washed out in this upload.)