This deserves a sticker, or a million dollars

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Eating has always been an issue for me. Not over-eating, but eating period. I've struggled with what might as well be called an eating disorder for over a decade, where I will not eat for days on end, not because I consciously make a choice not to eat but because I've conditioned myself so well not to even notice, that I'd forget or wouldn't take the time to stop and eat something.

I also struggled with the consequences of that, which include things like not BEING able to eat more then once a day because it was painful, and being tired, and grouchy, and dizzy. It had gotten to the point that I was just constantly nauseated and would pass out or vomit randomly, just for doing things like standing up. For future reference, this does not equal sexy.

I am however, very proud of myself right this second, because I just realized that I have eaten at least two, if not three, meals a day every day for two weeks. This for me, is a huge gigantanormous parade-worthy accomplishment. I'm serious, I'm tempted to throw confetti at myself if I didn't have to vacuum it up later. I have also done 20+ minutes of cardio every day for two weeks, which isn't too bad either.

I've even met my calorie goals, and even a couple of times gone over! I'm so proud of myself! I ate too many calories! It's silly, but for me, who spent the last ten years sometimes eating only twice a week, it's a huge deal.

It's been tough, some days I have to force myself to eat, and I have to write what I'm going to have down and make myself go get it because otherwise I just won't.

Getting points for tracking food helps too, I'm 4th on my cities Leaderboard for Spark Points (6th for fitness minutes) and well, you know, I only need 76 more points to be 1st. Heh.

So, yay for me. Maybe I'll buy myself a present...can you buy Cabana Boys with Spark Points? No? Well that's no fun.

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  • BOBBI_62
    Hooray for you! Yeah, that confetti can be a pain, huh?
    Too bad about the Cabana boy business too. I do have stickers, though...
    4115 days ago
    Good for you and your progress!! BTW, thanks for your encouragement on my sparkpage. I see you already have the beautiful flowing hair required for bellydancing! I'm taking your advise...Thanks.
    4116 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/9/2008 3:46:22 PM
  • LEAHMCC311
    Thank you for the comment!

    Congratulations on your accomplishments too!
    4116 days ago
    Well, not a Cabana boy, but we'll find something to send you to celebrate this accomplishment! That is great that you are treating yourself well enough to eat regularly. I'll be cheering you on in your quest for wellness!

    Hooray for you!
    4116 days ago
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