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I'm Sick In More Ways than One

Friday, March 07, 2008

I'm sick in the head, too. I know. I came "out" yesterday and today and told a few people who work for me what's going on (see previous posts about lumpy face) because all of a sudden they're noticing this big push from me wanting them to stop leaning so hard on me. I had to say something because they're all thinking they're in trouble because I'm telling them to handle this stuff themselves. Why the change? So I had to explain.

So today, when one of them was saying something about the "waiting" I said, well, you KNOW, I DO have a nice Swiss Army knife. And I KNOW where the lump is. I just need a shot to numb it, and I'll go get it out of there myself and send it to the lab. How hard can this be? I just need someone who knows how to sew to fix what I mess up.

This person's eyes welled up with tears. They weren't tears of laughter. I think they were tears of horror about what I'd just said. :) She certainly didn't think it as funny as I did.

Thank you for all your kind thoughts. I can't tell you how much I wish March was over. There's other stuff going on, too, that's nearly as stressful as this. Big Life stuff. There's also good stuff going on, so I'm going to choose to focus on that a little bit now that I haven't been able to bribe or blackmail my Dr. into digging the lump out any sooner than the 18th. Maybe if I call them 10-15 more times today, they'll be sick of hearing from me and do something to get me taken care of more quickly? That's a thought...
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    Ah geez, I'm sorry to hear about this. I totally understand your scare. I lost my dad 1/06 to lung cancer, he was just 54. 5 days after his funeral my mother was diagnosed with lung cancer! She was 52 at diagnosis. So I totally understand where your coming from. I quit smoking about 10 months after my dad's death and mom's diagnosis. Than threw myself into a health kick January of '07 and haven't stopped since. So I totally feel for you. Let me know if there's anything I cn do, or any support I can give you. (((((Hugs)))))
    3730 days ago
    If you're sick then I'm sicker ... see, cuz you're just TALKING about the Swiss Army knife... I told you what I did with the seam ripper and the bump on my gum... I got that thing myself! HAHAH! Not recommended, but .... I got that puppy. Now, since mine wasn't a**fat then you know...it was no big deal. HAHAHAHA!! I told you about when my toenail lifted and my doc was like "yeh you'll have to go on Lamisil pills; we'll see in a year if it works, it doesn't work on everybody; and it *may* leave you with liver damage". LIVER DAMAGE! So after a shower one balmy October day I cut that damned toenail off myself and let the fungus be AMUNGUS. Nail grew back and my toes are gorgeous again. HAHAHAHAH!!!! DO NOT put anything past me is alllllll imma sayin....
    3730 days ago
    you're a nut! Swiss army knife? don't you know that you'd end up pulling out the corkscrew instead (out of habit, eh-hem) and making wierd curly-que marks on your face that no respectable seamstress would dare attempt to mend. Leave the cutting to the experts and you get back to doing what you do best--sparking :) Seriously, we all realize that this is a major, stressful, worrisome situation. Some people just don't know how to handle watching someone for whom they care go through something so terrible. But they are forgiving, so don't give a second thought to how YOU react to them reacting, etc. It just isn't worth the additional stress. Now.....I do have this beautiful Ginsu knife set that I bought in the 80s after watching the guy dice and slice stuff on t.v....
    3730 days ago
    Gosh CJ! Hand over that Swiss Army knife will you? ;) Seriously, who can blame you! Vent away gf, you are entitled, but just leave the darn knife alone!
    3730 days ago
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