I WANT CHOCOLATE CAKE!!!
Monday, March 03, 2008
okay here i am sitting at the computer and i swear to you i can hear that cake calling my name from the other side of the house. i have had a piece of that cake everyday since it was bought, twice the one day! even though i know i shouldn't.... but it was bought for me and no one else is helping me eat it to make it so its not staring me in the face whenever i go to grab a bottled water.... i am about to run out there and gobble it down and i'm trying very hard not to but no one is online to side-track me from the mutual yells from both my stomach and the cake to eat chocolate yumminess!!!
i'm on my second bottle of water, and i've already ate a banana. i can't even tell if i'm actually hungry or just seriously craving it. the last time i kept myself from eating i felt sick because i didnt and i dont want to do that again but i dont want to eat something i know i shouldn't no matter how much i want it. how is it i can easily pass up other foods but not chocolate cake? and i can't throw it away because not only my parents would call it a waste of money but so would i... and i dont think i could make myself do it even if i were rich and money didn't matter. its chocolate!
MUCH LATER: okay, i have been wanting that piece of cake since dinner, which was seven and a half hours ago. i cant sleep for thinking about it... can i go eat it now? y'know, i think if i had just had a piece after supper it wouldn't have seemed so massively important; i probably wouldn't not have been sitting here craving it at 2:30am. and i probably wouldn't have eaten a whole sixth of the cake either... which is worse for me, to eat the rest of that cake in the next couple days or slowly torture myself and eat one piece a day for a week?