Losing myself - finding me just in time

Losing myself
Just where in the world did February go? Can you believe it? March 2 - a new month for new victories.

I am glad to report that the last 2 days have allowed for me to walk the dog. I made it around the village in 25 minutes. I'll need to drive that again to see what the distance is. The dog enjoyed herself; we didn't get splooshed with water; no other dogs were out to challenge us - it was a great walk.

Last week I seemed to lose myself. I'm thinking that stress - again - steered me off course. I can't quite put my finger on the trigger this time. I do have a yearbook deadline coming and am not getting the help from the kids I should be, but I am also not asking for any. The book is nearly done, and I can definitely finish this week. I tried different DVD workout this past week. I did 90 minutes one day and 50 minutes the next, but I'm not sure that was the right thing. I think I need to go back to doing the circuits I can get from Jillian Michael's website and save the DVD collection for later...except the cardio kickboxing - I love that! Doing the prescribed circuits the last two days made me feel secure. Apparently I need that. So it's back to the Jillian plan.

I must get a grip on my eating. I'll write it off to PMS + stress. It's not that I eat lots of junk and processed foods. It's that I eat too much overall. Looking at fitday.com today, it says I need 1600 calories; Jillian says 1927; Spark says 1600 - 2010; Alli says 1800. Seems to be a range there, so I'm going to shoot for the low end of that at 1600 - 1700 and see what happens. I know the secret is to eat lots of salad and veggies to fill me up. I get that; now I have to do it.

Above all, I need to learn to take care of me with intent. I mean, not just going thru the motions. I did that a lot last week. I ate things thinking - oh, hell, I'm in a hurry; I forgot to eat breakfast; I need something...just eat eat eat whatever comes your way. WRONG answer! This week I need to make a point of eating with intent - make healthy choices that will fuel me up and stick with me instead of sending my blood sugar soaring and crashing. So this week - conscious eating! I wish I could eat only when I'm hungry, but my work schedule doesn't allow for that. It'll be fine. I will make it be fine.

Duty calls: cleaning the car, mopping floors, laundry, and grading papers. BLAH.
I also need a shower after the dirty work is done.

I'm going into the week feeling grounded and focused. Can-do attitude in place.