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I have been on this fun ride for quite some time, I have learned a lot not only about healthy eating and exercise but also about myself.

In the time I have been on Spark I have been laid off from 2 jobs, went through a horrendous break up, moved to a city where I knew nobody and watched my children grow from small elementary children to now a high school graduate and an almost middle schooler (my little one currently is in year round school and doesn't move onto middle school until later in June). Along with a whole lot of other exciting and some not so exciting things.

I have learned to embrace change, because without it life would be boring. I have learned to stand up for myself and try to be brave in the faces of uncertainty. I have learned to not just settle for anything really.

We all have the capability to move from where we are, we are not trees. I wasn't happy with my weight or my health, so I chose to change that. 2 years ago I hit 169 for my weight, I hadn't seen that number since my 20's no joke. I was riding that weight loss train like there was no tomorrow.

Nothing could stop me I was on my way...and then life was like "hey catch this!". I tore my calf muscle one day and my world stopped. I couldn't exercise, actually I could have I just couldn't do the exercise I wanted to do. So I decided I was going to wallow....and wallow I did. I slowly started to lose my strength I had built and I slowly started to gain weight again.

I kinda yo yo'd for awhile and then on Thanksgiving of 2016 my guys father called me a "little piggy" and continued to make references about my eating and whatnot (see my blog if you want to read about that lovely holiday). I was mortified and I let those words roll in my mind like little fish in a fish bowl. Christmas rolled around and the snide remarks still came at me from his father.

Two things happened that day, one I decided I was no longer going to spend time with his family because they are insensitive. Not everyone is, but I will not under any circumstances subject myself to someone being a bully. I also decided I was going to get back where I needed to be...which is essentially healthy for my girls. I need to be there for their graduations from elementary, middle and high school an onto college. I need to be there for their weddings and birth of my grandchildren.

I have had moments since 12/28/2016 where I have fallen ill, my calf bothered me, I wasn't feeling it, my tracking has been off, you name it I've dealt with it. But I'm still here, tracking and trying my best to stay on track. Sure I haven't lost as much weight as I had a few years ago, BUT I have accepted that a slow loss is going to benefit me in the long run.

I try to remember to fuel my body and not throw my meal planning out the window. I have to remind myself that even though meal prep is tedious...laziness does not save me money or get me healthy. I now take the train to work, which means I walk to and from the train station both to and from my house and to and from my work.

I have this one life and if I learn at almost 40 y/o's old that I need to take better of care it, then that is fine. I will get day at a time.

My numbers may not be the greatest, as you can see I've had my moments thus far. However I'm not ashamed, I have accepted my imperfections. I can look back and see how far I have come since 12/28/16. When I weighed myself that day I was almost to my highest weight and there was no way and never will I be at or beyond my highest weight ever again.

Member Since: 12/29/2009

Fitness Minutes: 123,011

My Goals:
Complete a Half Marathon =o)

ST at least 3x a week

Yoga 2x a week
219- 12/28/16
215- 1/4/17
210- 5/29/17
205- 06/05/17

My Program:
Strength training at home

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  • v no profile image MELANIE19877
    That's a great idea to look at the library. I never would have thought to do that. Well good luck with school.
    3492 days ago
  • v DEB2448
    Welcome to spark people. This is a great site full of wonderful tools to use. By joining a few teams you will get support and motivation from other members. Good luck with your goals.
    (leader of OFF: Ongoing Fun & Fitness Team)
    (co-leader of Creative Challenges& Saintly Souls Team)
    3493 days ago
    emoticon and emoticon to SPARKPEOPLE and the SP CLASS Dec 27-Jan 2! We're all about having FUN and making FRIENDS, LEARNING about everything from SPARKPEOPLE to FITNESS and HEALTH.

    Confused about anything? This site can be overwhelming so be sure to visit the "Let's SPARK!! Site Help and How-to's" topic under the GENERAL TEAM DISCUSSION FORUM. We also have two QUESTION topics for you to post your questions to.

    After that, just jump right in! There are forum topics that will help us and your teammates "Get To Know You", celebrate your "Birthday" and "SPARKaversary", and lots of other things.

    The "Jumpin' January Challenge" Part 1 is from December 27th through January 9th! Feel free to JUMP in and JOIN the CHALLENGE!

    Finding a good team can be a bit overwhelming on here. I’ve been through 50+ and have now settled into what I think will be my permanent teams. Visit my page, or KAMINLENA’s, if you’d like to see what teams we’ve joined.

    I am also the Co-Leader of “Fibromyalgia + Support = Friendship & Hope”, “Hot Flash Buddies”, “Amazing Abs”, and “Crunchers” – If any of these teams are a fit for you, consider this a personal invitation to join (we’ll be having a new challenge starting Jan 1 so, if you do join a team and want to join the challenge, you can sign up on the team page or send me an e-mail)

    Susan -- Co-Leader (You are welcome to add me as a emoticon if you'd like)

    3493 days ago
  • v no profile image MELANIE19877
    Hey! How are you? Thanks for the blog comment. I am going to try to find a pilates video to try it out.

    Congrats on joining SparkPeople. I see today is your first day.
    You're doing nursing? I am too. I start my first semester in two week. Are you doing associates or bachelors?
    3493 days ago
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