September 2012 at 165 goal

Me (at 279) and my three amazing kids...James age 9, Samuel age 21 months and Kaleigh age 15 1/2




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Hello Everyone, my name is Tracy. I have been having a hard time for the past several months now. Here are some of my numbers to try to shorten my description:

Joined SP in July 286 pounds.
In September of 2012, I hit my goal weight of 165 pounds.
In April of 2012 I began running and loved it.
In July of 2012, I ran from start to finish my first 5K. I still loved it.
In December of 2012, I ran each day for a total of 100 miles.
In April of 2013, I began wondering what I was aiming for. I had a hard time keeping my weight in check and wasn't looking forward to my running anymore.

Since then I have been struggling. I have gained about 30 pounds back. I am very unhappy with myself and seem to keep grasping on different things to try to find my lifestyle, but thus far nothing has worked. I have tried running again, but am still finding it feeling like a chore, probably because I am looking at it as a job/chore and I am mad at myself that I am not in the shape I was just a year ago. After months of doing this, I made some new years resolutions, figuring that had to work. I feel like I MUST know what I need to do. But they came crashing down around day 10. I suppose I should note here, I am a food addict and I am pretty sure I suffer from binge eating disorder. I have been thinking for days, I decided that the time I was happiest was when I was active on Spark. I believe it is because I always searched myself and came up with goals and plans to achieve them. I need to do something to keep myself in check. So, here I am back sparking. I also searched my thoughts about starting a new name or coming back to this one. It is kinda shameful to look at what I had done on this old name and feel like I let others but mostly myself down. But then decided that this is what I need to do, go back to this girl who lost the weight, who found the motivation and determination to follow through with making goals and setting plans. I decided it was truly time to live up to my name on spark.....


Member Since: 7/8/2011

Fitness Minutes: 40,738

My Goals:
Get back to my goal weight range of 163-168 pounds.

Find my love for running again.

Run a half marathon.

Get smaller and leaner, not skinny.

My Program:
Eat in my calorie range

Weight lifting 3x a week

Running/cardio 3x a week

Learn that it doesn't have to be all or nothing

Personal Information:
My name is Tracy.

I am 40 years old.

I live in Connecticut, USA.

I am married to my high school sweetheart, have been for 17 years.

I have 3 AMAZING children, Kaleigh, 18, James, 13 and Samuel 4 years.

Other Information:
I love:

my family
my friends
my new home
Big Bang Theory
UConn Huskies men basketball

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  • v BBORDEN86
    You are some awesome for doing this! Thanks for the links.

    I was mainly concerned about the meats. I mean for the most part I try to stick to ground turkey instead of ground beef now, but was wondering about the bacon. Also other red meats, but like you said sometimes it's just not possible.

    I plan on checking out your links though. I think that will help me. I may do a paleoish lifestyle. Do it as much as I can, but if it's not possible don't beat myself up about it. I think the more I add whole foods into my diet the better regaurdless.

    I'll have to follow you on pinterest. I think on there I'm bethborden. :)
    1518 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/26/2014 9:25:03 AM
    Hi! Hopeyou had a good day. Unfortunately last night was a typical wakw up every hour night again. However my cardio was pretty good today and I got over 8000 steps in by the end of it. I also reached 10000 steps today and 11000 yesterday. Had my son over for dinner. Fixed baked ziti and I ate too much. We all devoured seconds. Should feel guilty but it was delicious.I will make something lighter for dinner tomorrow. We had snow all day! It melted as it fell on the roads but is beginning to accumulate on grass. Will see if school is delayed tomorrow. Tomorrow we are having coffee with friends so our gym workout will be later in the day.
    Did you know that 20 pistachios are only about 100 calories? Hope they work for you.
    Have a good evening!
    1518 days ago
  • v BBORDEN86
    Questions: Can you eat store bought bacon? Is the goal mainly to eat things as the come. Like an egg is really an egg, banana a banana. Can you use vegetable oil at all? Or do you have to use extra virgin olive oil... or nothing? I'm definitely a meat person can you still have ground turkey or chicken, what about red meat? Are their links you can copy so I can find the correct information. :)
    1519 days ago
  • v BBORDEN86
    Ha! I never thought to look at Whole30 stuff on pinterest. You're a genius, and what great ideas. Going to gather more information, and I might give it a whirl. :)
    1519 days ago
  • v BBORDEN86
    I keep going back and forth with wanting to try it. For the most part I think I can... it's just a mental thing. Just thinking about all the crap that is currently in our house that would go to waste by being on the plan makes me freak a little bit. While also realizing how much better I could be eating! I know it would totally be worth it, I just don't know where to start. *sigh* I just wish I could skip to where I was before... of course it's all my mentality. Haha, I just need to do SOMETHING.
    1519 days ago
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