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College Senior.
Studying English and Psychology
Battling Binge Eating Disorder
Running a Half Marathon in December 2013
Aiming for Health and Happiness

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My name is Marie, and I'm a college senior trying to get fit. My life story is made up of yo-yo diets. My weight fluctuated all throughout high school and into college, and I couldn't figure out the secret to getting healthy. Turns out, there's not really a major secret. I was just never fully ready to commit long-term.

My weight defined me. I constantly felt judged, and it made me a very insecure, reserved person. People probably weren't even judging me as badly as I thought -- I just truly believed everyone in the world looked down on me and thought I was awkward and weird just because I was overweight. I felt like a failure. At my highest, I was 162 lbs at 5'3''. That was my turning point.

In June 2012, I realized my weight was preventing me from being the person I knew I was deep down, the person I knew I could be and wanted to be. So, I committed. It was slow. I relied on Sparkpeople's food tracker, and I worked out 5-6 times a week. I LOVED it. I loved my healthy lifestyle. I loved working out. I happily planned my life around my workouts and healthy eating. I felt the best I've ever felt in my life, and I was finally so happy. I was confident and sure of myself, and the weight was coming off. Slowly, but still. I lost 20 lbs in about 4.5 months. I got in the best shape I've ever been in.

But then, my binge eating disorder came back, and it hit me harder than ever. In December 2012, I succumbed to it, and I've been battling it ever since. I fell off the healthy and fit wagon that I adored, and instead I fell deep into the depths of binge eating cycles. It's something I am still struggling with now.

I started going to counseling, and now I understand what is underneath my binge eating. That's something for another post, but the point is that I'm now back. I'm ready to fully beat this. Since falling back into binge eating, I've gained back 10 lbs. My goal is simply to lose that 10 lbs. Nothing more for now. I just want to be at a healthy weight. I want to feel comfortable in my skin again. I want to feel alive and energized and ready to take on anything. Right now, I feel defeated and insecure. I feel like a failure, or like I'm not good enough. Deep down, I know I deserve better than that. So, here I am. Ready to fight for fit for the last time. Welcome to my journey, and good luck on yours!!!

Member Since: 9/9/2013

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To be a healthy weight (140 lbs for my height)

To run a half marathon

To defeat binge eating

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