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Me on the happiest day of my life (my wedding) feeling like "Toby with the Ice Blue Eyes"

top to bottom: Toby, Kalen, Jean, and Sprite = My beautiful family (minus the cats, who don't pose well)

Graduated MTI Paralegal program with a 4.0 GPA



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There are 2 ways I think of myself physically speaking: as the girl with the beautiful ice blue eyes, or as that obese woman she turned into who's depressed and eating junk food in front of the TV. If I remember that underneath the extra pounds I'm still that beautiful girl, then I believe I deserve to feel like her again.

I just reset my goals, but want to save my old data, so here it is:
Goal Starting Weight: 238
Goal Start Date: April 1, 2010


Weigh ins 2007:
prior to joining SparkPeople I'd bounced from 227 down to 200 and back up to 217 over the first half of 2007
217 - 6/29/2007; 204 - 8/18/2007
215 - 7/4/2007; 202 - 8/28/2007
214 - 7/8/2007; 200 - 9/6/2007
212 - 7/14/2007; 202 - 9/21/2007
211 - 7/22/2007; 198 - 10/7/2007
210 - 7/31/2007; 196 - 10/20/2007
208 - 8/3/2007; 196 - 11/14/2007 (Woo hoo! I'm not gaining!)
206 - 8/13/2007; 192 - 12/6/2007 (Losing again!)
205 - 8/15/2007;

Weigh ins 2008:
190 - 1/14/2008
188 - 1/18/2008
186 - 1/23/2008
185 - 2/23/2008
185 - 4/9/2008 (Woo hoo! I'm not gaining!)
184 - 4/11/2008 (Losing again!)
185 - 7/2/2008 (been gone awhile, back on SP)
199 - 11/10/2008 (Day 1, back on SP)

Weigh ins 2009:
210 - 3/8/2009 (Step 1, "admitted powerless over food")
220 - 5/19/2009 (Today Ice cream, Tomorrow Day 1)
222 - 11/16/2009 (Day One, again... don't give up!)

Met these goals, got rewards:
215 lbs = See Harry Potter 5
210 lbs = order Angel Season IV
205 lbs = Get Hot tub Fixed
200 lbs = New Laptop
195 lbs = Buy Harry Potter Book 7
190 lbs = order Angel Season V
185 lbs = Get a Haircut

Rewards planned:
180 lbs = Go Camping/RVing
175 lbs = Buy a Bathing Suit
170 lbs = Take a Day All for Myself
165 lbs = Go Clothes Shopping!!!
160 lbs = Buy a new Book
155 lbs = See a Movie at the Theater
150 lbs = GO TO HAWAII !!!

My favorite SparkPeople quote:
"This IS NOT a diet, this is YOUR LIFE!!!!!"

"People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing--that's why we recommend it daily." - Zig Ziglar, motivational speaker

"I'm still trying to find new homes for the material shards of my past that no longer inform my present." - from TV show "Numbers"

"My fear of financial insecurity has absolutely nothing to do with the state of my bank account, and everything to do with the state of my relationship with my higher power" - Toby, at an AA meeting, 1/15/08

Member Since: 6/29/2007

Fitness Minutes: 10,549

My Goals:
get down to my goal weight and stay there by changing my lifestyle for good. improve my health.
adopt a second child.
DONE: finish law school. overturn federal DOMA and win marriage equality for all.

My Program:
drink water all the time, enjoy walking and getting active daily, cut back on tv, eat and enjoy healthy foods and snacks, enjoy getting enough sleep, enjoy life.

Personal Information:
Age 51, married, mom to 15 year old daughter, solo practice attorney, living in SF Bay Area

Other Information:
quote: "Yes, I have bipolar disorder; but bipolar disorder does not have me."

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  • v LMB-ESQ
    What did you think of Con Law? I think it is the driest, most boring, dull class I have ever taken, including undergrad. Just picking up the book puts me to sleep. Seriously... if I want to stay awake reading it, I have to stand up at the kitchen counter to read.
    2744 days ago
  • v LMB-ESQ
    Same as you. Too much homework. I live in front of the computer. Spark is my sanity break. I hate these classes this semester and can't wait to get them over with. I'm not behind, but I haven't started outlining yet either and that's giving me fits. I've also been preparing my application for admission to the bar, which in Ohio is due November 15 of your second year of law school. Now *that's* been fun! Try going back over 30 years to list every address you ever lived at! LOL I gained a few pounds over the summer and can't get rid of them. I have been trying to work out a little though, swimming and bike riding mostly. That also helps relieve some stress. Glad you made it back! But I certainly understand why you've been gone!
    2744 days ago
    Hey Laurie, it's been... you know. Stuff. Sticking with my food plan. Down about 45 lbs since April, working with an OA sponsor. Issues with the kid. Too much homework. Basically no time to mess around on the internet so I haven't been "sparking" much. Trying to stay off email and facebook too. If I have time to sit at the computer I feel I should be spending it studying, since I'm always behind.

    How are you?
    2746 days ago
  • v LMB-ESQ
    Hey lady... where ya been? Everything going okay?
    2748 days ago
    Congrats on being student of the week!! Also a big Woo-Hoo on your weight loss and your GPA!
    2781 days ago
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