There are 2 ways I think of myself physically speaking: as the girl with the beautiful ice blue eyes, or as that obese woman she turned into who's depressed and eating junk food in front of the TV. If I remember that underneath the extra pounds I'm still that beautiful girl, then I believe I deserve to feel like her again. I just reset my goals, but want to save my old data, so here it is: Goal Starting Weight: 238 Goal Start Date: April 1, 2010 HISTORY: Weigh ins 2007: prior to joining SparkPeople I'd bounced from 227 down to 200 and back up to 217 over the first half of 2007 217 - 6/29/2007; 204 - 8/18/2007 215 - 7/4/2007; 202 - 8/28/2007 214 - 7/8/2007; 200 - 9/6/2007 212 - 7/14/2007; 202 - 9/21/2007 211 - 7/22/2007; 198 - 10/7/2007 210 - 7/31/2007; 196 - 10/20/2007 208 - 8/3/2007; 196 - 11/14/2007 (Woo hoo! I'm not gaining!) 206 - 8/13/2007; 192 - 12/6/2007 (Losing again!) 205 - 8/15/2007; Weigh ins 2008: 190 - 1/14/2008 188 - 1/18/2008 186 - 1/23/2008 185 - 2/23/2008 185 - 4/9/2008 (Woo hoo! I'm not gaining!) 184 - 4/11/2008 (Losing again!) 185 - 7/2/2008 (been gone awhile, back on SP) 199 - 11/10/2008 (Day 1, back on SP) Weigh ins 2009: 210 - 3/8/2009 (Step 1, "admitted powerless over food") 220 - 5/19/2009 (Today Ice cream, Tomorrow Day 1) 222 - 11/16/2009 (Day One, again... don't give up!) Met these goals, got rewards: 215 lbs = See Harry Potter 5 210 lbs = order Angel Season IV 205 lbs = Get Hot tub Fixed 200 lbs = New Laptop 195 lbs = Buy Harry Potter Book 7 190 lbs = order Angel Season V 185 lbs = Get a Haircut Rewards planned: 180 lbs = Go Camping/RVing 175 lbs = Buy a Bathing Suit 170 lbs = Take a Day All for Myself 165 lbs = Go Clothes Shopping!!! 160 lbs = Buy a new Book 155 lbs = See a Movie at the Theater 150 lbs = GO TO HAWAII !!! My favorite SparkPeople quote: "This IS NOT a diet, this is YOUR LIFE!!!!!" "People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing--that's why we recommend it daily." - Zig Ziglar, motivational speaker "I'm still trying to find new homes for the material shards of my past that no longer inform my present." - from TV show "Numbers" "My fear of financial insecurity has absolutely nothing to do with the state of my bank account, and everything to do with the state of my relationship with my higher power" - Toby, at an AA meeting, 1/15/08

get down to my goal weight and stay there by changing my lifestyle for good. improve my health. adopt a second child. DONE: finish law school. overturn federal DOMA and win marriage equality for all.

drink water all the time, enjoy walking and getting active daily, cut back on tv, eat and enjoy healthy foods and snacks, enjoy getting enough sleep, enjoy life.

Age 51, married, mom to 15 year old daughter, solo practice attorney, living in SF Bay Area

quote: "Yes, I have bipolar disorder; but bipolar disorder does not have me."

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