Hi. I want to get to a goal weight of 165. I'm about 5'9" or so - my thinnest was 155 and I could feel my ribs. I don't need to get back to that...just a healthier, better weight. I also really want to take a picture of a 140 pound smaller me in my big jeans holding them out like a TV diet commercial. That would be super too. I like to knit. I enjoy all things craftastic, but especially knitting and crocheting. I have a bad habit of starting things, getting close to the end and then starting something else. As a result of this bad habit, I have a basket next to my chair of incomplete items. A knitting graveyard if you will. So I am a serial knitter. A wise woman once told me that you cannot die as long as there are unfinished projects. I must be stockpiling them for my golden years. My main goal when starting this was to try and have a second child. One miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy have put me back to my starting weight, give or take a few pounds. It's been one year since the worst of it, but I'm still shaky at best most days. I can keep myself together for my son, but there are very bad days. I know that I haven't taken care of myself; my health; or my overall well being for a long time and that is my fault. This truly is like starting over.

I want to be a normal sized person. Not the fattest person in a situation. I'm tired of being the comparison, ie - "Don't worry about your dress - there's always a fatter person"...folks that person is me (most of the time). I want to have another child and feel that part of my inability to have conceived in almost 2 years is my weight. If it turns out that I cannot have any more children, I'd like to be as healthy as possible for the one I have. I don't want to be an embarrassment for him when he starts to bring friends home.

1. Stay within recommended calorie limits most days of the month. I am allowing myself 1 to 2 cheat meals per month to ward off cravings and complete abandon. 2. Do 3 workouts per week at the YMCA and at least 1 (optimally 2) additional workouts - either spark people, my parents, on demand tv, or outside. 3. Try to create a consistent weight training regimen and a schedule for that. Incorporate wrist and ankle weights into existing workout. 4. At least once EVERY DAY I want to do some kind of activity. I'm starting at 5 minute blocks - even just walking/jogging in place for 5 minutes, or the same in jump rope, low impact aerobics, anything. I realize there are times like while cooking dinner or waiting on washer to fill, or son to rinse in shower that I stand idle. I feel like even the tiny boost could help.

My name is Jennifer. I am 32 and have been married for 7 years. We have one son, 5 years old. I live in Massachusetts and used to teach high school English for the Department of Youth Services. I'm a nice person and have a good sense of humor, love to laugh. It's hard for people to see that because the first thing they notice is the fat.

I love to read. I like Anita Shreve, James Patterson, Jodi Picoult, and many more. I am an avid knitter, crocheter, and general crafter. I am still working on learning to sew better.

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