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My name is Esset, and man oh man is it hard to be here!

I want to be strong. I want to look strong and feel strong and find some peace in that -- while my first focus is to love my body in whatever stage it's in (and man oh man I LOVE my fat body), I also know that I do not currently treat it with the respect that it deserves. I do not treat myself as well as I could or should, and I know that. My body deserves better from me, and if I should make these changes without losing a pound, I will be just as happy as otherwise. My body wants to tell me what it needs -- I need to learn how to listen to it.

That said, I'm interested in yoga, weight lifting, and incorporating whole eating into my life. This choice is coinciding with a new found spiritual journey, based in metaphysics (astrology, magick, numerology, tarot, runes, etc). I'm working to find my true self, and I know that my body and soul both need a lot of consideration.

I currently work as a Para Educator at an Elementary school, and I'm going to school full-time (working towards becoming a teacher myself). I live in Lakewood, WA with my Legal Smooch (that is, my spouse). Our wedding is on July 31st of this year.

I have a lot of conflicting feelings when it comes to the space between accepting and loving my body as it is, and working to change it, so I'm trying to keep that in mind as I work through this. That said, I am in recovery from various forms of disordered eating and am easily triggered by negative fat talk, so I would appreciate not having fatness / fat bodies / fat itself be referred to as negative when in direct communication with me. Thanks!

Member Since: 3/8/2014

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My Goals:
I intend to feed and nurture my body however it needs. I intend to seek moderation over restriction or indulgence. I intend to find my strength -- both physical and mental -- and let it guide me through life.

Also, I intend to kayak this summer because gosh darn isn't kayaking fun?!

My Program:
Whole foods in moderate portions, avoiding indulgence AND restriction.

Going to the YMCA to do weight lifting and cardio at least three days per week.

Personal Information:
I live in Lakewood, WA. If you'd be interested in texting or hanging out sometime, send me a PM!

Other Information:
I'm an avidly body-positive intersectional feminist. I personally identify as fat, queer, femme nonbinary, and my pronouns shift with my feelings.

I'm a ukulele player and a shy singer, I love to read and am an aspiring writer.

I'm also mentally ill and this is worth mentioning as the lens through which I experience life is very much tinted by my experience with this: I'm bipolar, with general anxiety, PTSD, and mild compulsive tendencies.

I'm also a huge nerd, and love video games, fun card/board games, and have a blossoming adoration for D&D.

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    Welcome to the For the Love of Horror team. I hope this finds you in good spirits.

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