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Hello everyone! My name is Rachel and I am a college student in Louisiana (at least for the next four (counting down!) months). I am looking to lose weight and have a healthier lifestyle before graduation and a move for graduate studies.

I am really trying to create a program I can stick with. I have the knowledge and tools for losing weight, but I have always used a "diet" mentality and slowly but surely gained it back. While I am not huge by any means, I am short (5'3") so I need to weigh less than I do now to look and feel my best.

I love to exercise though I am terribly uncoordinated and lack athleticism. love yoga and love how my body is transformed by strength training but am working on doing more cardio to burn the fat. I aim for 3-4 hours of intense cardio a week in addition to 90 minutes of interval runs. Unfortunately I also eat like I am training for a marathon...really. I eat a lot and often, so I am finding the balance between quelling my hunger and not taking in more than I need.

So many people say they were driven to this point by not loving themselves enough and putting others first but that has never been the case for me -- if anything I love myself TOO much! I am constantly trying to find a balance between my natural selfishness and helping others, though once I am on your side I am loyal to a fault.

I can faux-get-along with anyone but I do not like many people. I am 100% left-brained and linguistic. I follow through. I see everything as black and white. I am terribly uncompetitive. I love fiercely. I dream big. I need lots of attention. That is hardly the whole of it but it will suffice.

Member Since: 2/8/2009

Fitness Minutes: 27,866

My Goals:
To lose weight by lifestyle changes

To start Harvard's MTS program in Fall 2010

To find a maintenance plan and keep the weight off.

To crave healthy foods.

My Program:
1400-1700 calories each day

60 min. of vigorous cardio 6 days/week (Step, Stairmaster, etc).

30 min. easy exercise most days -- walking the dog, tap dancing.

Stretch after cardio!

Strength Training

10 fruits and vegetables a day

Protein at every meal/snack

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I am loyal to a fault.

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  • v LLBEAN75
    No the thought of dying and having no more life and having just nothing is the worst thought that has ever entered my brain.

    You actually would be an excellent person to talk to about this and I didn't even think about you! She just wants me to find SOMETHING. I don't have to be active. I don't have to practice. I just need something that I can believe and that can help me shape the rest of my life so that I can let go of this anxiety and help my life have a greater purpose. She wants me to start by talking to my mom about buddhism and about my dad's religion, the Self Realization fellowship. Then I'm supposed to read synopses of different spiritual beliefs until I find one I like. That sounds overwhelming to me.
    3540 days ago
  • v no profile image EMM624

    Thanks for the comment! I'll be posting :) And boy problems seem to be a trend in my life... so get ready to read some fun stuff haha
    3540 days ago
  • v LLBEAN75
    I've been trying. I've been avoiding the dreams and the panic attacks about dying and the elaborate tragic accident scenarios I've been playing in my head. But yesterday I finally told the DR about all of this and she simply told me instead to think about HOW I want these things to go. What do I want to happen to me after I die? She said I have to figure that out and find a way to be more spiritual and believe that these things will happen so that I can find peace in my life. She said that since I've been avoiding all of these things it's just causing my anxiety to multiply and so that when I do think about it it's making me freak out instead.

    I agree, I need to stop playing the games with myself. I'm only 23. I'm not dying soon. My mom is not going to die when she has her major surgery next week. But one day I will die and I have to find a way to come to peace with that. The DR says thats through becoming more spiritual and finding a belief system that works for my life. I don't really know how I feel about that yet because I'm avoiding it (surprise surprise).

    And basically, I'm a mess! What's new?!
    3540 days ago
  • v SHASTA11
    And 19,500 points. How great.


    3547 days ago
  • v SHASTA11
    Wow, 50 points. How neat.

    Are you home yet?
    3549 days ago
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