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" . . . there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task. " President Barack Obama

"Successful people have learned to make themselves do the thing that has to be done when it has to be done, whether they like it or not."-Aldous Huxley

"Patience is also a form of action." Auguste Rodin

We are all agents of change in our own lives.

"Be the change you want to see in the world." - Ghandi

"Turn off the TV and turn on your life!" - Delilah

Do It Now!

If you've got a job to do,
Do it now!
If it's one you wish were through,
Do it now!
If you're sure the job's your own,
Don't hem and haw and groan,
Do it now!
Don'y put off a bit of work,
Do it now!
It doesn't pay to shirk,
Do it now!
If you want to fill a place
And be useful to the race
Just get up and take a brace,
Do it now!
Don't linger by the way,
Do it now!
You'll lose if you delay,
Do it now!
If the other fellows wait,
Or postpone until it's late,
You hit up a faster gait -
Do it now!

- Unknown

I am glad I did it - I am glad I ran while I had the chance. In the short 2 year window between my asthma getting under control and before my back problem, I was a runner. It was the hardest thing I think I have ever done, beginning to run for one minute then walk for five to let the burning in my lungs subside so that I could run for another minute. When I ran, I felt like I was flying. It felt great when I had finished a work out. Gradually I was able to run further and run faster. After 1.5 years I was able to run a 5K in 30 minutes, which for me was very fast. Then my spine problem hit. Everything came to a screeching halt. No more dancing, no more running. Even walking became excruciating. I don't know how I managed to work and continue to live independently through the worst of it. I resisted surgery from the orthopods and I am glad i did. I got a second opinion from a neurosurgeon. He said I didn't need surgery. What I needed was patience, time, and rest. Ah, patience. That was the hardest part. Finally, I saw a quote from Auguste Rodin above. I was so used to DOING something, to being active, that it was counter-intuitive for me to be a patient patient. Through PT, yoga, and modifying my living space to be more back-friendly, I gave my back what it needed - time to heal. But through all that I was depressed, bored, reacting to medication, and sliding back into using food to soothe and comfort me. My runner's high was being replaced by a sugar high. But as we all know, the sugar high is short lived and the crash on the other side is ugly when we look in the mirror and see ourselves larger and lumpier than we know we truly can or want to be. As it is for every change in my life, I got mad and once I get mad, there's no going back. The chocolate was in the trash. I was off the couch and at the gym. So what if I could only go around the track ten times, that was ten more times than I had done in the last six months. The emotional pain of settling for walking instead of running was another hurdle to overcome, but I was grateful I could even walk. And slowly, slowly, just as it was when I was a beginning runner, I was able to walk further, faster, then do weights, and gradually get to an exertion level that I was getting that work-out high again. Positive results begot more positive results and now I am on a roll losing my rolls. It's about regaining the lifestyle I had. I hit a major speed bump but I didn't stop.

As of 11-30-08 I am 183 lbs. and a size 16.
New consistency goals markers:
Completing Phase 1 - impulse buy at TJ Maxx or Gaiam Yoga for Back Health - ACHIEVED lost 5.4 pounds!!!!
Taking care of my back with yoga and strength training for two weeks - massage - ACHIEVED! Lost another 1.6 pounds!
Navigating Channukah and Holidays sticking to Phase 2 - new gym bag - ACHIEVED! Lost 1.5 pounds over the holiday break!

I am now 173.8 and back into my size 14's. My confidence is growing, my back health is improving, I am smiling and laughing more.

New Consistency Goal Markers from 1-11-09
Logging nutrition on sparkpeople daily for two weeks - new saucepan. - ACHIEVED!
Strength training 3x/week for 3 weeks - new workout clothes. ACHIEVED!
Faster-paced walking (15 min/mi) as long as my back agrees - 4 weeks - new walking shoes. ACHIEVED!

New Consistency Goal Markers from 2-23-09
Stepping up the weights - new gym bag
Logging food and exercise on sparkpeople.com 6/7 days for three weeks - new workout clothes (that I didn't get for myself for my last goal)
Staying off the Diet Coke for two weeks straight - new plant

I am half-way to my ideal weight. I am 3 lbs away from my 10% starting weight goal. I have lost 15 lbs so far! And this with a back problem. What I can do now is: elliptical for 30 min. @ 125, treadmill for 30 min. @ 3.8 mph, walking lunges with weights, step-ups with weights and extra step, heavier lat pulldown, and plank, reverse plank and side planks holding each for 45 seconds on a balance pad. What a difference 4 months of hard work and determination make.

Thank you, Biggest Losers, sparkpeople.com, my sister, and my best friend!

Re-starting again. From Feb.-May I had one of my most stressful periods since grad school. New relationship, report cards, training, projects, more report cards, closing up the room for the year, and on and on. At one point two weeks ago I thought I was going to loose it. Of course, with all this came increased back pain, which led to less gym time, which led to more sugar intake to get the high I need, which led to a negative spiral of stress and chocolate, etc., etc. In all, however, I only backslid about 5 pounds, which is not great, but is also not disastrous. I know what I need to do to get back on track and I can and will do it. I have no stress now and all the time to go to the gym, plan and make healthy meals, mediate, journal, and e more well-rounded. Now is a time for healing and pausing and reflection.

Consistency Goal Rewards:
5-30 to 6-12 - Two weeks logging nutrition and fitness and writing journals - ACHIEVED! - new shoes
6-1 to 6-12 - Two weeks back at the gym - new workout outfit - ACHIEVED!
6-10 to 6-24 - Two full weeks of new work out program -

Member Since: 11/24/2007

My Goals:
I will not be an obese disabled person. I may have a spine condition but it does not define me. I will not give up, I will not use food to soothe my pain. In college, I was 190 lbs. I had lost 25 of that and kept it off until this year when my back got bad. I was up to 183 again and said I had to stop. I want to get back to where I can walk to the Ann Taylor sale rack and try on what I want and have it fit and look good.

My Program:
Cross-training - Cardio: elliptical, recumbent bike. Strength: upper body, lower body/core weight programs. Nutrition: balance, portion control, calorie monitoring, whole grains, whole foods, savoring food, lots and lots of veggies.

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I am asthmatic. It used to completely control my life. Now my asthma is under control, but I have a spine issue. I am thankful I can walk and work.

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  • v CURBUR
    I just wanted to stop by and check in. I haven't noticed you posting on the team threads lately and I wanted to ask if there is anything we can do to help you and to let you know that I am thinking about you and sending positive thoughts your way.

    Co-leader South Bend
    2861 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/22/2010 1:01:55 PM
  • v CURBUR
    I just wanted to stop by and say how wonderful it was to see you joining in our new challenge. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you in your journey.

    Co-leader South Bend
    2908 days ago
  • v SWDOTB2
    Good morning, just wanted to stop by your page and say, thank you for joining the challenge and posting such a positive declaration of intent. All the best wishes for your success and good health in this month of July!!

    2908 days ago
    Hi - Love the quote
    Welcome to spinal injuries - I hope you find help there, as many have.
    Glad to have you on board

    Hugs, Ember
    3683 days ago
    Looking forward to our run tomorrow! I'll try to keep up with you - I haven't been running as much these days.

    3790 days ago
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