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July 2012, after pedicle subtraction osteotomy. Before cane, now I can't sit or use a cane.

Using the cane in July 2012, improving until December when severe adhesive arachnoiditis hit me.

Life was good. I did what I wanted on 4-6 Darvocet / day. Now 23 hours I am laying down out of 24.





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I used to worry and feel that being thin was the MOST important issue in my life. I worked hard to get thin and fit exercising two to three hours daily. That amount of exercising allowed me to eat 2300-2700 calories daily and I still lost 30 lbs.
In one afternoon, at PT, I overpowered my pelvis and lost by bodies coping mechanism to walk. It changed my life FULLY and has changed my priorities. Now my goal is to have some life. I currently can't do daily life activities. I awaken at 11-11:30 am, it takes me 20 min to get dressed, comb my hair and brush my teeth, after that I go on a 0.3 mile walk with my Dad which takes 30 minutes. That activity is all I can manage in any day. I am told it will never get better.The rest of the day is either laying on the sofa or sleeping on the bed. Most nights I can't sleep until 3-4am. And it starts all over again.
I initially gained 13 lbs back. I cut my caloric intake down to 1500 calories. This is a struggle, but I haven't gained anymore. I need to cut 100 cal. more but I don't know that I can since food is the only enjoyable thing left in my life and that is not getting much fun food.
UPDATE: February 2014: I have been diagnosed by two doctors, one of which is the only doctor to have written two medical texts for doctors on the disease,with severe adhesive arachnoiditis. One doctor is quoted as saying, "it has the pain of bone cancer without the prospect of an imminent death." I am doing palliative care. The liquid morphine has helped with the pain in addition to my other narcotics. I also have been on all sorts of hormones as the pain strained my adrenal glands and several other hormone manufacturing in the body. They have brought up the hormone level. My life remains at 22-23 hours lying down in a day. I can walk 0.3 miles in 30 minutes. That is all my body can take and my arms carry a lot of the walking on the walker. This is my so called life.

Member Since: 3/11/2011

Fitness Minutes: 34,049

My Goals:
To lose 3-8 pounds
Get my parents to go on a date without me
To find fun activities.

I have been part of SP since 17 March 2006. I went. By attheinlet back then when my health took a serious downturn so did my feelings. And you know the saying if you have nothing nice to say, well I was in a bad frame of mind and didn't want to pass it on so I changed my name to onbeachside and just used the trackers and kept up with only a couple folks while I figured out were life was taking me.

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Since major surgery, I have had to change goals. I wish I would lose about ten pounds but I don't see it happening.

My physical activity involves a morning 30 min walk and stretches 3 times a day to prevent muscle contractures. That s what my body can only do now.

When I joined SP a few years ago as attheinlet I was burning 3700 calories a week, so this is tough not getting to eat what I want.

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I am a 48 single woman with serious back and pain issues. I can walk 20-25 minutes I can't stand sitting due to increasing pain.
Life is...
...and the beat goes on!

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I had serious life and death surgery 23 January 2012. I have come back to walk .34 miles in 30 minutes.

It is hard to be happy to be alive when you can't do anything without the severe pain being just controlled doing nothing with high narcotics. Just knowing that the littlest extra thing will make the pain uncontrollable which means I am trapped in this life until I die.

I am only alive thanks to parents as I can't stand to cook, sit to drive, stand to shower. I am very dependent on them and believe me, it is NOT my choice.

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