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nothing had motivated me more than a need to get rid of my memories and fears... this led me to an idea of creating a list ... where I would write 30 things I hate in my life and those I want to forget about or just simply let go... I am sure since it's been only 1 hour from the moment it came up to my mind, that it'll take a good period of time to make it ... I feel it is just exactly what I want I'll take my time to NOT forget anything....


so the first pound I will give away to A MAN whom I love and who'll never feel the same way to me

Erick - it is for you! I hope with this pound of my fat I'll give away my sorrow and hope!
(I really respect this person and want no harm for him... but I will still feel glad if he keeps it ... he will never be with me what means I will never get that pond back ha ha )


the 2nd pound will go to my group mates !!! Oh man, did I hate them...! Guys! I would let you go with my all 2 ponds but I got too many of those deserving one so I am afraid not more than 1 is allowed to be given away... Sorry))

the 3d one will go to a person with the name Tanya ... she was my best friend and the one who showed me how it is when to be friends... she was also the one who made me feel as miserable as ever possible.. I loved her but she took me the wrong way and I am happy to be smart and strong enough not to get in the life she wanted... there probably was a part of me who longed for the same but it was not the good one.. so Tanya! take it !

the 4th pond I will give to another lady I had worked for ... she was the one who gave me an opportunity to feel myself mentally insulted, not appreciated, being disgusted of .... and the one who showed me - that money - IS WHAT WILL NEVER MAKE ANYONE HAPPY !! the money will create an illusion of a complete happiness for the owner but meanwhile will ruin peoples hearts. Robin - it is for you! a pond of my FAT!!! don't say no! it is ok with me!


the 5th one i would give to a man who Loved me but his love was more of a possessing... the one whom I consider to be my mistake to be with ... Sam - take it !


My ************ I lost and the feeling of a loss I had kept for a long time ... but

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  • v NSIPLE
    thanxs so much.....lets be friends...and i love to complain so complain as much as you want so i dont feel so nicole im married and have been 3 yrs.....i went in the the marriage weighing about 210 and now i weigh 270......i want t o lose 100 lbs so that i can have kids and be healthy....tell me about yourself emoticon emoticon
    3456 days ago
    Thank you for your comment. It means a lot to hear from people on this website. Because everybody is going through the same thing your going through here. I also suffer from depression which is a big part of my weight problem. I love to eat and it make me happy what can I say. Well I know that you said that you've never bin "skinny" but you'll get to your comfortable place. Just keep going man. Its inevitable as long as you stay on track. Its a nice place to be in I was at a good weight about 3 years ago but that didn't last more than year. But I'm ready to be their again and stay there. For the Right reasons. And I know you are too so I'm here any time, just give me a hollar. Thanks again!
    3476 days ago
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    And thank you for my goodie too. emoticon
    3489 days ago
    Hey, thanks for writing. Well, I threw away that snack I was talking about earlier, before I gave into it. What you said about allowing yourself to eat junk food occasionally and not being too restrictive makes a lot of sense. I am going to try to not eat anything after 8pm and see how that goes. Next week I will try earlier the way you have. My biggest problem now, i think, is finding an appropriate snack that i can live with to take the place of my snacks. I hate veggies, although i will tolerate them with dinner (but not as a snack!!). Fruits are okay, but i think will get old fast. Thanks for your help. By the way, congrats on quitting smoking. I quit when I was 25 and i'm so glad i did. Keep up the good work. emoticon
    3489 days ago
    Hi April. I also started SparkPeople this month. I love it. I have tried everything to lose weight. As I've gotten older (54) and my kids have left the roost, my eating habits have gotten really bad. And old habits are hard to break, to say the least. I can wake up in the morning and tell myself that today is the day. And maybe i'll do pretty good until night time. That's where the problem lies. It's like an addiction. I know I can do this. And it helps so much to have these wonderful people to talk to and ask for help. Someday maybe i'll even be able to help someone else. But I wanted to write and encourage you. If I can do it, anybody can. Maybe we can correspond and uphold each other. Tonight there is a certain snack in my fridge. I know that the answer is to throw it in the trash right now, before the urge is too great. I will try to find something on sparkpeople that will be a better choice. Sooner or later the addiction has to get easier. Good luck on your journey and hope to hear from you. emoticon
    3489 days ago
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