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New GD Ryan! Hopefully, deep in her subconscious, something will remind her I was there.

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My DD with our first GD Sierra, age 3, on a quick visit to California. Miss them more every day!


MIMAWELIZABETH is a SparkPeople Motivator!

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I'm now officially in my 60's, have been married three times, have children and grandchildren, and am happily married for 18 years. I'm also physically disabled from a brain and spinal injury in 1994.

My main goal on Spark is to live a healthy lifestyle by eating wisely and being active. Food-wise, I do well; I've been tracking my food for years. Swimming is my fave exercise, but I need to be consistent.

My beloved son Scott was killed in February 2008. I will always grieve the hole left in my heart, and am forever changed by his death... However, I also found a wellspring of faith I didn't know I had. There is no doubt I have been very blessed.

I hope you'll take a look at my Photo Gallery, and share those special times spent with my wonderful family. The latest addition to the family tree is DD's second daughter, Ryan, born May 2018. She joins sister Sierra Elizabeth, now three years old.

My DH Bob is a wonderful, affectionate and caring man who has always loved me... JUST THE WAY I AM! Since we got together in 1996, my Life has had a calm center I'd never known.

DH was diagnosed with ESRD (kidney failure) and started dialysis in 2011, forcing him into retirement. From January 2015 through March 2017, he had countless health setbacks and complications requiring numerous ER visits, sixteen hospitalizations, and several surgeries. It was tough with the ups and downs, but we're doing fine. DH's health is stable, but he's struggling with damage to his brain. We're working on a "New Normal."

Now living in his childhood home, we're FINALLY able to have our own pets. Tabitha was our first rescue adoption, just three days after we moved in. Dinky - formerly called Blackie, long story - came next; how is an even longer story! We now help a local cat rescue network, mainly fostering and socializing. We recently foster-failed Lil' Scrappy, the "runt" in one of our feral-moms-with-litters. That takes our personal indoor cat count up to three, more than enough for a "tiny house"... but OMG, we love them with all our hearts!

Member Since: 4/9/2007

Fitness Minutes: 150,618

My Goals:
My initial ambitious attempts on Spark triggered my usual self-sabotage, crash- and- burn pattern. I decided to take my time and learn to use Spark's tools, going for a long term goal of eating and living healthily, but not worrying about weight loss. That continues to be my main focus.

I've been very heavy (obese) for over 30 years now, except for a short time 18-20 years ago. I quickly lost 105# and had maintained for almost two years. I was doing very well, but "lost it" - the panic, depression and inertia of PTSD, prompted by retrauma of CSA, caused a complete reversal and I gained over 50# in 4 months, plus 20 more over 3 months, going on to gain 115# total.

How could I have regained so much weight, after all that work? Because our emotional and mental components will determine the ultimate result of our physical condition. I've definitely learned that, which is why "losing weight" isn't as important to me. I'm enjoying the journey!

My Program:
I'm doing well now as far as using the tools on Spark. I weigh and measure and honestly track ALL my food every day. That's the bottom line for me, the most basic of steps, and IMO the most important tool.

I love to do Spark activities; but reading and posting on my teams' message boards is a source of support and comfort, and an outlet when I need one. I try to remember to turn to Spark when I start floundering, and I've spent many a night on Spark, reading, posting or journaling, instead of binging.

I have "Silver Sneakers" and use the pools at the local gyms for water-based physical therapy. My biggest challenge is exercising consistently. The problem is just as much a mental block as it is physical limits.

Personal Information:
I have two biological children from my first two marriages. Often, they were my only reason for living, and remain my heart and soul. Son Scott would be 38, but he died in February 2008 (details in my blogs). Daughter Aubrey, 32, married in 2007; photos of this wonderful day are in my gallery. She and SIL live in Colorado with their two daughters. My amazing DD is undoubtedly my best friend!

DH has a grown daughter with three children (one step, one bio, and a new step). We are "Mimaw" and Grandpa to Kaile, age 14, who has been a big part of our life since her birth. We live in southern California.

I was crippled in a fall in 1994, disabled with a brain and spinal injury. My children suffered greatly, financially and emotionally, made worse when abandoned by my second husband in 1995. Slowly, I rebuilt my life with my kids. Meeting my DH is the icing on the cake of life!

Other Information:
PTSD from violent sexual abuse in my childhood has hindered me all my life. With the death of my son, I am dealing with a whole new set of devastating emotions. When I started on Spark in 2007, the wonderful and caring community made a huge difference in my life. I feel stronger and more grounded, and have had more successful days and weeks in the last 11 years than in ALL my years before! Also, I know I would not have survived the death of my son without Spark in my life, and unending support of my wonderful Sparkfriends.

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