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Hi. Thanks for visiting my page!

I've been "Sparking" since August 2007.

What's helped me most? Without a doubt it has been the nutrition tracking because when I'm not aware of what I am eating, I over eat.

Its true. I suffer from gluttony. If left to my own devices, consisting of a littany of reasons like, "I deserve it" or "I need it" or "boo hoo" or "I'm bored" or 'it doesn't matter anyway" or 'who cares" or "I just want to have a little fun" or " I want it and I can have whatever I want!" (picture stomping of feet and holding of get the picture), I will over-indulge.

So... I have these "reasons" I over-eat and in the past I have used them as excuses. It's as if I'm trying to forget (or pretend to forget?) what it is I really want. Or I'm fooling myself into thinking that what I do today is not going to have an effect in the future.

Whoa! How could I think that? What was I thinking. Well in a way, I wasn't thinking, was I? In fact, it occures to me that this is a form of self-hypnosis. Like I'm really brainwashing myself. Pretty funny, huh? I pretend I can't figure out why I over-eat and it turns out I'm actually brainwashing myself with the list of "reasons why I eat".

Have you ever seen the bumper sticker "Don't believe everything you think"? What great advice!

I have been on all the "diets" over the years. I've lost and gained a lot of weight. I was at or near my heaviest when I found Spark People. I was beginning to wonder if I could do it again. If I really could do another "diet" and be successful.

But hold on....I love to scuba dive! It's the only sport I can do well. I want to keep diving and I know I can't if if I don't do something about my weight and my health. the end of July 2007 we joined the gym, AGAIN. She wanted to lose 20 pounds and I had a much bigger goal than that.

That brings me to one of my personal issues with the whole weight loss thing. See, I think that if you lose something, then it just stands to reason that you're looking to get it back. So, I'm working very hard to change the language that I use around all this. I shed pounds or I let go of them. I use any language I can think of that doesn't imply I want them back. BECAUSE I DON"T! EVER!

Anyway, about a week after we joined the gym, Sandy found Spark People. At 1st I thought, "I don't want to count calories and I'm sure not into this whole "community" thing!" (There go those thoughts again, sabatoging, brainwashing!).

But, I gave it a try, because Sandy was pretty excited about it. At 1st I grumbled about it being "too hard" but I hung in there for a few days and found the shortcuts and got the hang of it...

And here I am. (Thank you Sandy for prodding me along and being my scuba, gym and hiking buddy and for all the rest you do to support our efforts at healthy living! And thank you Spark community and especially all of my wonderful friends on the Scuba Team!)

I'm over halfway to my goal. Yipee!!! I feel great! I just came back from a fabulous dive trip. I'm still "Sparking". I use the nutrition and fitness tracker most days.

I'm not perfect. I have good days and bad days. I love chocolate and almonds and I still eat them as well as most of the other foods I've always loved and thought I couldn't eat. Sometimes I still over-indulge, but I don't get stuck there anymore. I forgive myself and move on.

Depriving myself didn't work. "Diets" didn't work! I am NOT on a "diet"! With Spark tools I can eat what I want by making clear choices. I know what I'm eating and how much and what I need to eat to be healthy.

I am more than 50 pounds lighter than I was when I started this journey. I did not lose them! Not lost, but gone, gone gone! Released to the universe. Not mine any more!

When I hear those old excuses, I see them for what they are, just some B***S*** to distract me from what I really want and then I remind myself that "This is the only moment I have to change the future!"

I'm doing it! You can too!

Life is short. I'm not wasting any more time waiting for it to start. I'm showing up starting now!

"If we can be courageous one more time than we are fearful, trusting one more time than we are anxious, cooperative one more time than we are competitive, forgiving one more time than we are vindictive, loving one more time than we are hateful, we will have moved closer to the next breakthrough in our evolution.

One warning: Evolutionary behavior is addictive, once you start it's very hard to stop. After all, why live and evolve unconciously when we can live consciously and, at the same time, speed up the process of evolution for ourselves and others?" Jonas Salk

Member Since: 8/4/2007

Fitness Minutes: 58,119

My Goals:
Excercise at least 30 minutes every day.

Track nutrition everyday.

Reduce my weight to 125 lbs. by May 1, 2009.

My Program:
Move, move, move!

Now that it's summer, I'm not in the gym so much. Instead I'm hiking up and down the sand dunes of Lake Michigan to get to the beach. We do a 5.5 mile hike regularly and on the off days do a 1 hour round trip hike to the beach.

In the winter I still hike the dunes and I workout at the gym at least 3 times a week doing 50-60 minutes on the ellitical trainerand either an upper or lower body workout on the machines.

I track my nutrition and try to keep my calories at or below the recommended amount.

I eat whole grains and lots of vegtables and fruits. I get most of my fats from olive oil and canola oil.

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I live in southwestetn Michigan. I love to scuba dive, take dogs to the dog park, hike the dunes at the state park and swim and sun bath at Lake Michigan and at the ocean. I also love traveling the world and meeting people of different cultures.

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  • v CJROMB
    I'm gonna send you a SparkMail about this.
    3253 days ago
  • v CJROMB
    Keep up with everyone as in keep in touch with everyone? Or keep up with everyone as in keep up with the pace of their loss?
    3253 days ago
    Thanks for the info! I was in Saugatuck last year (LOVE that place!), but never made it to the dunes. I will spend most of my time near Ludington, but will plan on making a trip down to check out your dunes.
    Again, thanks!
    3254 days ago
    Congrats on getting back on the wagon. I am on my way to Lake Michigan and plan to use the weeks there to get myself back on the wagon! Any recommendations on hikes or outdoor activities?
    3254 days ago
  • v JIBBIE49
    emoticon on your SECOND emoticon Sparkversary. emoticon

    Do you realize how few people stayed with a healthy lifestyle who joined when you did two years ago? I know they WISH they had done what you have by making such great changes in your life! emoticon

    I know this next year will be even better! emoticon emoticon It is YOUR life and it is all about the choices YOU make!
    3255 days ago
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