My intro when i first joined Spark in January 2007... I used to be really healthy, competed in triathalons and had tons of motivation. Now after fertility meds, failed attempts to get pregnant, adopting 3 older children at once and dealing with their issues, teaching and getting my master's degree, there is not much left for me. UPDATE....JANUARY 2014.... So much has changed since I first joined Spark....my children are all adults now (21, 22 & 23yo), I now have 2 grandchildren (4yo & 6 mos) and they bring me so much joy & happiness. I am happily divorced (husband of 22 years cheated on me with a married co-worker of his)...divorce took over 2 years, but I'm completely independent of him now! My weight has gone down, the up, then down, then up & up, then down way too much and slowly back up again. My ex tried to micro-manage my weight & always made me feel as if I never looked good enough for him. There was always a direct correlation between my weight, my happiness & my marriage. That has all changed, though. NOW IT'S FOR ME!!! For the first time in my entire life (my mother used to micro-manage my food, too), I do this for me and not to fit someone else's image of what I should look like. I'm doing this for me so I can finally be healthy and happy and truly love my body. I don't know yet what that will be, but I will know it when I have finally achieved it...the ideal me. It won't be a number on the scale or the size of my clothes. It will be how I feel, how much energy I have. It will be about looking in the mirror at myself and not finding all the things about my body that I need to "fix. It will be about me being comfortable in my own skin, loving myself & being happy. It will be about wearing anything I want in my closet, instead of what fits me at that point. It will be about getting rid of the span of sizes from 0 to 14+ because my weight is constantly going up and down. It will be about maintaining that end result when I finally achieve it so I can have a full wardrobe of clothes I feel comfortable and confident in, instead of a wardrobe full of "fat" & "skinny" clothes. That journey has begun and I am so excited to see where it takes me...like a block of clay that will slowly be molded into who I was always meant to be, only this time, I am the artist...and I will choose how to shape myself into whatever I want me to be.

Take time for me!

To go slowly...slow and steady wins the race, right?





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