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One of my first attempts (145#) - now I'm at 300#

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January 2015 - I'm still here...

Some may think that is a sad statement, but I am here because I need to be - to hold myself accountable.

I will NEVER quit-- and when I reach my ultimate goal, I will still be here, so that I can maintain and encourage others.


I have been up and down in weight since starting this journey. I've gained so much more than a number on a scale or a pants size...

I can run/jog/walk consistently without feeling like I am going to die.

I can deadlift 300#

Food is fuel - it's purpose is to fuel me so I can do the things I want to do. It's not for entertainment purposes.

My daughter inspires me - at age 14 she knows that her worth is not equivalent to the size she wears. She measures her success in her accomplishments - in the number of laps she swims in the pool, or how many miles she can run. I am so proud of her.

I'm worth the effort. I refuse to put my health last anymore.

Member Since: 1/19/2011

Fitness Minutes: 45,520

My Goals:
Weight goals:

199 (onederland) -





150 GOAL-



Other goals:

Learn to swim well enough to swim ONE lap without stopping-

Ride in a biking event -

Play on a softball team again- DONE 8/16/12 - Six game round robin tournament - and I rocked it! Update: did it again in August 2013 - still rockin' it!

My Program:
I work out a minimum of 5x a week - My routine varies, but the emphasis is on strength training, balance/core, and cardio - guess I covered it all!

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I love to read.
I love to cook.
I love to workout (I never thought I'd ever say that).

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Only YOU can make yourself feel inferior. Others can try, but you ultimately have to give them the permission to do it. DON'T! Plan to work and work your plan.

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    Stopping by to say hello. Trying to catch up. Hugs!!
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  • v JIBBIE49
    emoticon Great to see your Spark Friend, emoticon MRS_EVA_K as The Motivator of the Day. What an honor for her.
    890 days ago
    "I'd rather be lonely ALONE than lonely in a relationship (hope you got that)"

    YES! I get that completely! I left once before 13 years ago...but I left looking for a better relationship, and when I didn't find one I came crawling back. This time I realized the mere fact that I was OK with being ALONE forever, if that's what it took to finally be happy, I realized I was ready to really let go of what I thought we could have been.

    I finally told him that today. I told him I wouldn't rush to file divorce papers. I told him I would wait the full year separation to file a no-fault divorce in our state. I would give him that year to figure himself out...but I wasn't going to change our arrangement in any way while he did that. Because I need too much to work on me right now. I just NEED that. And if he loves me the way he's claiming to, he'll respect that need and actually PREFER that I take that time for myself.

    The line you said above...I said that a year ago when we started counseling. I said it again to my counselor after the split in April. We went thorugh pros/cons of splitting together. And finally I looked at her when we were done and said, "None of that matters...because the one thing that trumps all of this is that this split is HONEST. Finally. It's me being HONEST about my life. I've been alone for 20 years. Now I'm actually alone and the world can see it. It feels good to finally be HONEST."

    GAH! So glad I have friends like you guys to talk this through with! Thank you for the support! Honestly! Whether or not this year changes anything, at least it will help me get well and then his actions, together or apart, will not impact me the way I've allowed them to for the past 20 years.
    1113 days ago
    Hope your day in the spotlight was positively marvelous!
    1137 days ago
  • v PCOH051610

    Sorry I missed your day in the Teddy Bear spotlight.....I hope it was as awesome as you are.

    1138 days ago
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