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Me, Oksana, OJ, and Drake at Chicago Botanic Gardens, May 2010. About 225 pounds.

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Jan 4, 2010 - 220.5 pounds.

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May 2010: 220 pounds: DID NOT ACHIEVE
June 2010: 225 pounds: DID NOT ACHIEVE but so close!! 225.5!
July 2010: 220 pounds (on home scale) DID NOT ACHIEVE

August 2010: Things have been really stressful for me at home (see blog entries from July for more info) and as a result I've really been struggling. July saw no change at all in my weight, and one inch lost overall on my body. I am struggling to maintain the changes I have been making, and I am going to therapy to help me push through all the stress and anxiety right now. My goal for this month is to lose AT LEAST one pound over the month and AT LEAST one more net inch on my body.

01/04/10 I am back to SparkPeople after a long hiatus wherein I ignored my weight and my health, much to my detriment. I'm on insulin now, blogging about where I'm at pretty much daily, so you can find all my current info there. All of my past SparkPeople info is below:

I am breaking up with my fat! (

I've struggled with my weight all my life (how many of our stories start like that??) In high school I thought I was fat; I started high school around 140 pounds and graduated around probably 170 pounds. To hit around 180 during college. (Looking back now, I wish I was that fat! And I bet none of you have ever thought that before, haha!) After college, I went through phases of getting serious about my weight and health, only to lose my motivation. I lost 20 pounds with Weight Watchers; gained it all back. I would lose a little on various diets but never enough to stick with it or to make a difference.

When I was 24, I got really serious. I was living in my own apartment in Chicago and having the time of my life. I started eating a little better BUT, more importantly, I joined a gym for the first time in my life. And I USED it. I lost 15 pounds primarily through exercising. It was during this time period that I met my husband. We courted, we got pregnant, we got married.

Getting pregnant and getting married and moving twice in the space of a year derailed any progress I'd made. I hit 205 during my pregnancy with my son. I had always, always set 200 pounds as my absolute limit. I will NEVER weigh more than 200 pounds, I told myself. Naturally this was a big deal for me, though I consoled myself with the knowledge that it was through pregnancy and I'd lose it after the baby, no problem.

Well, I lost some, but didn't manage to get back below 190 before I found myself pregnant again. This time my weight made it all the way up to 220. And never came back down. I made it back down to 210 shortly after my daughter was born, but slowly gained...until I was at an all time high of 226.

I have cried, I have beaten myself up. I have struggled and moaned. I had virtually no sex drive, and my marriage has suffered. I had no energy to play with my kids. I joined Sparks in May of 2007, but never really started using it.

In October 2007, I had a full blood panel workup, and learned that I've got Type II Diabetes, high cholesterol, and elevated liver enzymes. I had an ultrasound on my liver that December, and it was confirmed that I have a fatty liver.

I joined a local TOPS group in November of 2007. I also started using Sparks at that time.

I took medications, exercised more, tracked my food. I lost some weight and improved my health - within six months, my cholesterol was better and I was controlling my diabetes with these changes.

I grew complacent and slacked off on the eating better and exercising part. I gained back most of the weight I'd lost in the second half of 2008.

So it really should have come as no surprise when my bloodwork at the end of the year showed high cholesterol again, and poorly controlled diabetes. Now I am on two oral medications for diabetes, a cholesterol medication, a medication for my chronic bronchitis, and a daily aspirin for my heart (thanks to a recent heart attack scare that, thankfully, was NOT...but my doctors want me to be cautious given my other medical issues).

It is February 2009 at the time of this writing. I am 30 years old, but I feel like I am 90. I am having a really hard time on these medications andam struggling mightily. This feels like life or death to me. Yet at the same time, I am struggling very much with food issues, and am considering seeking therapy to help deal with them. You can see my blog posts from this time period to learn more if you'd like.

I'm pretty frightened that I'm receiving these diagnoses, especially at my age. You know, logically, that being fat is Not Good For You...but somehow it doesn't really sink in until the bad things start happening to you.

My ultimate goal is to manage all three of these conditions with diet and exercise. I hope I can do this. If I can't, the consequences could very well be devastating.

I need to be here for my children. I want to have a long, healthy life with my husband. I want to achieve the many, many personal goals I set. Above all, I want to be healthy.

One of my goals is to run a marathon one day. I ran my first race on 03/30/08 (Chicago's 8K Shamrock Shuffle) and am very proud to be a finisher!
Unfortunately, I stopped training after I ran that race in 2008. But I have started again, with my sights set on running the Shuffle again this year.
I am still doing run/walk intervals and going slower than I'd like; however, I'm 5'6" and over 200 pounds, and I completed a five mile race. I may be fat, I may be slow, but I did it. I'm not trying to put myself down here; I'm trying to point out that your weight, and your fitness level, doesn't have to limit you. I'm moving forward in my training, and moving forward with my accomplishments all the time, and I'm impressed as hell that I did it.

Race Results:
Chicago 8K Shamrock Shuffle, 03/30/08: 1:13:38


You can learn more about me at my website:

Member Since: 5/5/2007

Fitness Minutes: 1,221

My Goals:
lose five pounds a month!

get to 180 so I can start talking to my doctor about having another baby.

build strength.

manage diabetes with diet and exercise.

Lower my cholesterol.

Repair my fatty liver. (DONE! March 2010!)

See my children grow up.

Finish what I started - for once!

Have a long, happy life with my husband.

My Program:
Counting calories and exercising.

GOAL 1700 calories per day

When I exercise, I can add half the amount I burned to my calorie total for the day.

Following a VERY modified, slowed-down version of the Couch to 5K running plan. I want to run a race again one day! Blood sugar issues have made it hard, so I'm taking it SLOOOOW.

Also slowly trying to build strength by doing crunches, pushups, squats and calf raises daily.

Personal Information:
I'm a 31 year old married mother of two. I have Type II diabetes, chronic bronchitis, borderline high cholesterol and a fatty liver. I live in a south suburb of Chicago with my family as well as our cat and two dogs. I'm a writer; you can see a lot of my work on my website:

Other Information:
I am the leader of the Lansing branch of TOPS (Take Off Pounds Sensibly). We meet every Monday evening. My weight there has fluctuated wildly. I want to set a better example for all of our members.

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