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I've been a spark member for a couple of years now and decided it's time to have a spark page. I'm coming to the realization that I can't do this alone. It get's tiring to constantly re-motivate myself by myself. I'm ready to do this once and for all and need some support and understanding. I'm a 32 year old female and live in Bozeman, MT. I've had a long journey already. It seems like I've been trying to lose weight now for over half my life. I remember doing Abs and Chest of Steel and Tae-Bo when I was 15 trying to get weight off. I wasn't huge than, but at least a size 14. I'm 5'10 and I remember from a young age people telling me I was just big boned. Well, I'm not! By the time I graduated high school I was a size 16-18. When I moved to Montana for college I was a 20. After college and a year long internship I was a 22-24. It seems like I've been successful at all the other areas of my life except for weight loss. I joined weight watchers about 5 years ago and did lose 25 lbs. I than plateaued for almost 2 years, I eventually gained it back. Two years ago this June I decided to make a go at it again. My weight was in the 270's. I've always been a very active person and my body was really feeling the extra weight. I was embarrassed to hike with friends because I was so slow and out of breath. Skiing was becoming more of a chore along with finding ski clothes to fit my body. It was horrible to be fitted into a wet suit for a family rafting trip. I was still doing all these things, but it was hard.
Two years ago I decided to put myself first and to stop making excuses. I went to my doc and told him about my struggles. He put me on a medical supervised weight loss plan. I took phentermine (an appetite suppressant), had to track my calories and stay below 1700, and lots of exercise. I began to dive into the why I did this to myself and the emotional issues. I used Spark people to track. I lost 50 lbs and felt amazing! I could do so many things that I love to do so much easier, I felt unstoppable! I found that I loved cross country skiing and pushed my downhill skiing to a new level. Well, than in April of 2011 I tore my ACL and meniscus in my knee skiing. Freak accident. All of this came also with ending a 8 1/2 year relationship. It was a horrible time. I was devastated, I could no longer blow off emotional pain with exercise like I had been doing. I had to face it. It was tough, required counseling, but I got through and ended up having one of the best summers of my life. Since I couldn't hike last summer because of my knee I took up fly fishing and met my awesome boyfriend. Now it's been a year and my knee is doing better, still hurts here and there, but much better. I've maintained my weight loss, though I think a lot of it is muscle loss and fat gain. My body feels different, same weight but feel flabbier. I'm so ready to move on now and get another 50 lbs. off and get to my goal weight of 170. It just seems like I've been stalled and while I'm happy that I've maintained over this last year it's time to realize my dream of being a healthy, fit, and active young mountain woman.

Member Since: 2/12/2009

Fitness Minutes: 32,405

My Goals:
My big goal is to lose 100lbs, total. So far I'm half way there. One thing I'm trying to focus on right now is positive self talk and saying no to negative talk. I'm really trying to discover my reasons for overeating and fix them. I'm trying to get rid of guilt and be a little easier on myself.

My Program:
Eating between 1700 and 1800 cal/day and burning 3500 cal/week through exercise. I found when I've gone below 1700 cal/day I don't have enough energy to get through my exercise. Seems like if I can stick with this I can lose 2lbs/wk pretty well.

Personal Information:
I live in beautiful Montana! I love it here! I'm originally from the Chicago area and don't think I'm going back. I love the outdoors and fly fishing is one of my new passions. I also love to hike, ski, camp, and cook.

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    Thanks so much for the kind words on my blog, it truly means a lot! emoticon I completely understand old Linda reaching out to get some of the weight back. I feel like I do that sometimes to. But you can turn it back around, one meal and one pound at a time! emoticon
    2298 days ago
    emoticon I love making new friends! I added you back. I look forward to getting to know you!

    I hope you have a Sparktastic day!!!
    2682 days ago
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    Thanks for your message! You absolutely CAN do Couch to 5K! It took me a while to finish it -- I kept taking time off and kind of hung out around week 5 for a bit -- but I did! Then I went on to run half-marathons, a full marathon, and NOW I'm an Assistant Coach with my training group! If I can get this far, ANYONE can! It just takes the courage to start!

    When I started my whole weight loss journey, I was about 300 pounds and in a 26. And now, I'm about 207, and I about fainted when I went into the GAP to look at clothes and bought skinny jeans in a 14!!!!! It's the best feeling.

    Best of luck to you! :-)

    2726 days ago