See this image larger
April 28, 2011 - My happy face after a run

See this image larger
Love yourself!!

go to goodies page
go to goodies page
go to goodies page
Workout Clothes

Shared Food & Fitness Trackers
Add as SparkFriend Send Private Message Leave Comment Recent Message
Board Posts

Today, I will:

-- Love myself, unconditionally.
-- Forgive myself, always.
-- Motivate myself, every day.
-- Enjoy myself, and my life that I am blessed to have.
-- Indulge myself, on occasion.

This time I'm making this a LIFESTYLE change.
Patience is a virtue! Slow and steady....

UNOFFICIAL SW: 231 lbs. (March 1, 2011)

-- Healthy weight range/BMI for my body type
-- Effin' Rock a bikini and KNOW I'm rockin' it!
-- Portion control. Like, major control. Saying "no" 'cause I don't have to eat more.
-- Single digit clothing sizes!!!
-- Feel good about being ME in MY OWN SKIN
-- Quitting that nasty habit, smoking.

221 - 10 lbs done: DONE!
210 - 21 lbs done: New jeans!
200 - 31 lbs done: New running Kicks!
190 - 41 lbs done: New workout gear!
180 - 51 lbs done: Pamper Kristen day - spa, pedicure, etc!
170 - 61 lbs done: Lick Me Heels! Little Black Dress!
160 - 71 lbs done: This is my GOAL WEIGHT BAY-BAY! I do what I want!


--- Dorothy Broude

--- Winston Churchill

"In order to succeed, we must first believe that we can."
--- Michael Korda

"Forget mistakes. Forget failure. Forget everything except what you're going to do now and do it."
--- Will Durant

"If you went running when you first started thinking about it, you'd be back by now."
"Others aren't staring at you. They're thinking how they should be running, too."
"Someone who is busier than you is running right now."
--- Nike

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
--- Ralph Waldo Emerson

"My success is measured in miles. Not calories, not pounds, not ounces, not inches, not numbers. It's measured by that feeling in my lungs as I push past what I thought was possible."
--- KARVY09


My name is Kristen. I'm here because I've battled my weight for a very long time, and I'm ready to commit to losing it for good, for the better, foreva-eva.
I was never a small person, even as a child, so growing up with any sort of self esteem was a struggle. I was constantly comparing myself to friends and family, and after a while I came to accept the fact that I was just a "fat kid". During the end of my highschool career, I was working at a stable taking care of 40 head of horses, in great shape, and I still felt fat!
Looking back on pictures from then, I realize now that I was curvy and fit, NOT fat. It made me realize I had been comparing myself to OTHER PEOPLE'S standards, NOT my own, which are really the only standards that should matter in the long run.
I fight/fought with depression a lot. After going to college for a year and coming back 30 lbs heavier, I tried a few times to change my habits, but continuously fell off the wagon.
The summer of 2009 was when it really started to sink in. My boyfriend and I decided to go on a weekend camping trip with some friends of ours (who happen to be much more fit). We went hiking the first day, and only just after we started I was winded. I was the most out of shape person in our party of four and I struggled with the entire hike. It was embarrassing. At the end of the day I was really down about how far I'd let myself sink.
After giving weightloss and fitness a good shot again, I slid off that wagon, AGAIN, and started working 60 hour work-weeks, making poor nutrition choices, and allowing myself ZERO exercise. I'd put myself last, AGAIN.
Now that I'm squeezing into my largest sized jeans yet, that STILL never fit right, I want to change for the LONG HAUL.
I want to feel like me again and be able to keep up with my active friends. At 24 I feel I'm way too young to be so inactive, and I'm here to do a complete turnaround!! I will be beautiful, inside AND out!!

My biggest fight with weightloss/exercise has been finding the support I need to be fit and active in my lifestyle and limiting my portions (I'm a foodie at heart). I really love having the support network I need here on Spark. I miss hard work that actually reaps benefits, and now I'm learning to enjoy a good sweat with the help of my friends!

I've made this in an effort to push myself, and to be accountable not just to me, but all of you, too.
I know I can. It's just a matter of JUST DOING IT.

Member Since: 5/21/2010

Fitness Minutes: 5,837

My Goals:
* PUSH PUSH PUSH myself!!
* Learn how to incorporate exercise into my daily routine
* Enjoy healthier meals
* Exercise at least 3-4 times a week
* Run a 5K (done!)
* Stay positive!!
* Put myself first!!

My Program:
** Consume 1200 - 1550 calories a day

** at LEAST 8 glasses of water daily

**Cardio 5 days per week

** Run/Walk 5+ miles per week

** Strength Training 3 days per week

** Kickboxing class once a week

** I want to run a 5K! (Nov '10 done!!!)
(May '11 done!!!)

Personal Information:
Born in Oklahoma City and raised in Wichita, Kansas, I've moved back to OKC and am trying to make a living here. I have a zoo at home (dogs, bird, snakes), which I love dearly, and a wonderful boyfriend who I also happen to love dearly. :)
I enjoy the outdoors, cooking, ink, and horror movies. I'm teaching myself to enjoy exercise. I like to sing and paint and do my own thing, 'cause it's what I'm good at.

Other Information:
OK, I admit it. I *do* want to have an exponentially better self image, but really I want to look friggin' hot in whatever I decide to wear. Whether that's jeans and a Tshirt or a lacy nightie, I want to look like a BOMBSHELL. So sue me.

Read More About HEAVENSSHADOW - Profile Information moved here. (Updated December 19)

Shown if member clicks "Read More"

(Shown after Message Board Posts)
Add a Link
Save Changes
My Ticker:
 current weight: 210.0 
Login to Leave Comment
Member Comments (121):  123Next >Last >>