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Here I go yet again...and again....and again. I have lost this weight before. I have gained it all back. Plus more, each and every time. I have reached the point where it's my health more than my appearance I worry about, but that doesn't mean I don't want to look good.

I am 50, I have 3 wonderful boys. Ages 30, 23, and 22 . I have been blessed with three adorable grandsons, and a granddaughter. I don't want to be hiding from the camera anymore. I want to be in those pictures, and not sickened by what I see.

I have "disappeared" from family photos. What memories am I leaving behind? Memories of a Mom and Grandma that hides from the camera? Things have to change. They will change. I don't like what I see in the mirror, but at least now, I can begin to move forward. I know I am doing something positive for me. This is for my health. It's for my life. Looking good will be a wonderful BONUS, but not the most important part.

This is my fourth go round at SparkPeople. The site works, it's fantastic. I'm the one who didn't follow through. My SparkFriends have always been here for me, no matter what. They have continually reached out to me, even when I wasn't active on SP. I am one of the many who have been blessed because SparkPeople exists. There is no amount of money that can buy the support system available from this caring, giving, community. This totally FREE site offers all of the support anyone needs, plus such a wide array of tools and learning opportunities. It is truly amazing!!! It is here just for the taking!!! You better believe, I'm taking it!!!

I am going to do my best to hang on this time, no matter what roads life may take me down. This time I KNOW I will succeed. My plan is to not only learn how to eat healthy, but to put it into practice, and keep it there. No more "dieting" for me. Healthy eating, healthy lifestyle. Exercise will become a permanent change, not a temporary fix. I plan on using the fitness plan that SparkPeople so generously provides, and I will stick to it this time.

I have to make these changes if I want to live my life. As it is, I haven't really been living for a long time. I have been so down and discouraged. What kind of life is it when you don't want to go anywhere? When you are embarrassed instead of happy when you run into an old friend? When you never want to be in the family photos? When you KNOW everyone is staring at you in the checkout line at the grocery, and it's not your imagination? That is no kind of life at all.

All of that is changing. I feel good knowing I am making the right decisions for my health. It is rubbing off on my husband whether he likes it or not. I will not set myself up for failure by cooking unhealthy meals all the time. Yes, he can still have his favorites. So can I. Just not every day. There is room in a healthy diet and lifestyle for the occasional splurge. Occasional being the key

Member Since: 3/4/2006

Fitness Minutes: 3,955

My Goals:
Lose weight, get healthy, make friends!!!

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I'm a 50 year old homemaker. I'm lucky to live with the love of my life. I'm a true Gemini, there are definitely two distinctly different versions of me!!!

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I'm a perfectionist, and it drives my family crazy!!!

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." Marilyn Monroe

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  • v PJOY17
    Welcome to Plus Size Exercisers!
    We Can Do This!
    3260 days ago
    Hi Mary,
    Thank you for your message, good to see you back. I am back too, again! Oh well, I will keep at this. DH has lost 20lbs since February so that is motivating me to get busy.
    Hope you are well.
    Jayne. emoticon
    3263 days ago
  • v MELISSA20083
    Hi Mary! Nice to hear from you... still plugging along. Up and down. Sounds like you are doing GREAT! And, Lindsey getting married?!! So great. Wish we all lived closer. And I am recommitted to losing again! emoticon
    3265 days ago
  • v MELISSA20083
    Hi Mary! Nice to hear from you... still plugging along. Up and down. Sounds like you are doing GREAT! And, Lindsey getting married?!! So great. Wish we all lived closer. And I am recommitted to losing again! emoticon
    3265 days ago
    Haven't been here in forever Mary! Went on Nutrisystem the end of January and have lost 18 lbs so far. Was trying to lose 30 by July 1 but not happening. Trying to lose another 5 in the next 3 weeks for my wedding. Haven't bought a dress yet. Going shopping next weekend so I guess it will be whatever it is. LOL Love you and miss you girl! Drop me a line on Facebook anytime.
    3266 days ago
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