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Before my illness. 180lbs


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Hi, I am Sandra. When I became depressed and on medication for depression I gained more than 100lbs over a two year period. My weight impacts almost every aspect of my recovery from depression as well as my health. I suffer from chronic pain and have a respiratory condition left over from pneumonia that has had me on higher doses of steroids for months.

I have tried a few times to lose this weight with very little success usually caused by giving up a little bit at a time. An anniversary here, a birthday there, I will start fresh on Monday, etc. etc, until I just give up the commitment and fall back into comfort. Struggling with chronic pain, medications and the steroids really wears me out as well.

But I know that the weight is killing me and I know that it is keeping me from my life, from living and being around people. How can I not try again and again. This time, THIS time... this might be the time I finally lock in to real change. On THIS diet I will try harder than all the other times...

That is so easy to say.
It is so easy to believe... for a week.
It is so hard to do.

But what I CAN say, what I can know for sure is that TODAY I can do my best, today I will make different choices. Today I will try hard and nail it.

How many times can you start over?
As many times as it takes to get to the time that sticks!

Today I choose to be the future me I deserve to be.

Can you relate?

Member Since: 1/2/2013

Fitness Minutes: 798

My Goals:
My goal is to lose 120 - 150lbs. The goal seems overwhelming and this is not the first time I have tried. But after being really ill and seeing how my weight effected my recovery and how my weight impacts my health and well being every day I am ready, I am so ready.

I know when I reach my goal I will feel less pain, more energetic and will be light on my feet again. I will be less afraid of people and will finally be at peace with my physical self.

That is worth it, that is worth EVERYTHING I can give it.

My Program:
To achieve my goals I have three things I must do every day. It is really pretty simple:

1. Eat Mindfully
2. Track
3. Exercise

I am building a routine that includes each of these.

Personal Information:
I am an fine artist, bead designer and a poet living in beautiful Santa Cruz, CA - where the redwoods meet the sea.

Other Information:
I am so hoping to make friends here. I believe there is strength in numbers!

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