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What's a fatshionista? It's mostly someone with an extreme interest in fashion and style living in a fat person's body where fashion is a near-impossibility.

Today I'm bordering 400 pounds. I was skinny for ten seconds in 1992 after being on a liquid fast for 14 months. Other than that, I've been big all of my life, including my kindergarden health card which marked me as 20% overweight.

After that liquid diet, I kept the weight (170 lbs) off for 4 years. Then through a combination of moving away from my diet support group, moving into a 1/2 bad city neighborhood where it was dangerous to run outside (gunshots), being away from my health club, switching to a job that did not have a healthy cafeteria and entering a relationship that I responded to by eating emotionally, I packed the weight back on, and then some. That was a long sentence, I know. Living it has been even longer.

So now I need some help with motivation, because the pain of being fat isn't enough to stop the behavior. I want to be healthy for my kid, I want to wear the styles I love, but on many days, that has not been enough to embrace new behavior. I also want to get rid of some recent significant health problems and weight loss will help greatly. I can't take much physical action until I get one of the medical problems solved, but I can do better with my eating.

I know enough about myself to know that I need accountability, and I'm hoping SparkPeople is a way to do that.

My head is so disconnected from my physical self (which originally was a survival mechanism) I have allowed myself to get into this huge mess and seemingly insurmountable goal of losing more than 250 pounds. I know it's a day and sometimes a minute at a time, but this is difficult to do alone. I welome the company of others sharing the same endeavor.


Member Since: 9/16/2009

Fitness Minutes: 20

My Goals:
My own health - to stay the %^&* out of hospitals.

To be a real play partner to my 4 year old son.

To not be the fat mom that prejudiced parents don't want their kid with because they assume I will stuff him with HoHos or something.

To wear knee boots for the first time in my life (ham calves)

To wear cool clothes and intimidate skinny bitches

To live longer in cool clothes

To jog and weightlift again


My Program:
Recovering from very recent surgery, so while I am off of my stressful job, I am focused on portion control and not eating emotionally so I have a good base of behavior to build on when I go back. Also more fruits and vegetables, I'll probably follow something more formal later.



Personal Information:
I'm very near Chicago, but would prefer to be anonymous because I think my writing will be more honest that way. I do appreciate those on this website who reveal more, but I'm not comfortable with it.


Other Information:
I'm analytical, have a "dry" sense of humor (sarcasm without so much pain) and like to read magazines and books excessively. Esp. non-fiction, I don't have the patience for novels. Fall and spring are my favorite seasons, so why do I live by Chicago???




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    Spark has a lot of great tools, and you will learn which ones work best for you. The best tools are the people tho, always willing to lend a hand, an ear, or a shoulder. I’ve been here for over a year now, and I still am overwhelmed, every day, by the kindness and goodness of others on this team!! That has made a world of difference for me. I hope you have the same success! ¸¸.•¨¸♥¨`*,¸.•*´¨`*• .¸♥.*.•*¨¸.•´¸.•*
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    3637 days ago
  • v DIZBIZBELINDA
    Good job on your progress! Keep it up...you can do it....really you can!
    3637 days ago
  • v no profile image FATSHIONISTA
    Hi, MSShopper, I am still navigating the pages, just found out the nutrition stuff, now looking for the weight tracker. Good site and I appreciate everyone's comments. Thank you and have a good evening.
    3660 days ago
  • v MSHOPPER63
    Just dropping by to see how your first week is going? Are you utilizing the many tools SP has to offer? If you have any questions or need support please just let one of us know.

    I pray this message find you well. Have a Wonderful Wednesday.

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    3667 days ago
  • v LOSTWITHIN
    Just wanted to welcome you to SP! I have only been a member for a little over 3 weeks now and I have already dropped 20 lbs. There are so many supportive people to talk to, especially if you are feeling down on yourself.

    Your story is very touching and I feel the same way about my size. I once dreamed of being a fashion designer, even though I have always been to fat to wear any stylish clothing. It's very depressing.

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    Mia
    3674 days ago
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