DIGGING2GRAVES

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I'm rebounding from a marriage broken by my former spouse's infidelity. It has changed my life forever and as we have children together - it seems like I have to relive the pain and humility over and over again with being forced to deal with said cheater - and I will have daily reminders of not only a broken heart, but a broken self. On top of the sneaky grief that creeps upon me almost every day - it gets to feeling overwhelming having to deal with the esteem issues, self doubt, self hate and discovery of an ego I thought I never had. During counseling, I've been told to take a walk outside in the sun? - but to be honest, I am questioning the validity of my former perception of my own attractiveness - and while thinking about my appearance may seem superficial, I weigh on the pros that tackling something tangible might help distract me and hopefully help me find confidence in getting over my other problems, such as the sense of loss and heartache I've had.

Aside from my anonymous confession here, the only other people I've confided in as to the truth why my marriage ended are my therapist and sister. Even though I secretly believe that in order to survive as a victim of infidelity requires a good stroking to my ego - a more tangible reason is wanting to look decent in pictures as I received a generous "cheer up" gift from my sister; she has booked us a trip to the Bahamas in August - and while I hate to say it, I don't believe any woman could really enjoy such a trip if she can't pull off at least one bathing suit.


Member Since: 1/25/2012

Fitness Minutes: 86

My Goals:
Short Term: Being decent in a bathing suit come August for a trip to the Bahamas.

Long Term: Losing weight and being healthy for my kids. Picking up the pieces and finding out that I'm really made of what I always thought I was. I know you aren't supposed to say this out loud, but seriously - make my ex feel incredibly stupid for throwing away the best thing that ever happened to him (haha).


My Program:
I haven't found an official program, but getting an inkling with Sparkpeople's dietplans and fitness recommendations. I am going to enroll in a self defense course and am interested in the anti-inflammatory diet or the gluten free diet.



Personal Information:
Mom to 3 beautiful kids, my oldest being autistic, but high-functioning.


Other Information:
Favorite TV Shows: Revenge, Modern Family, Parenthood

Favorite Movies: Sliding Doors, Twilight Series, Gone With the Wind




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  • v no profile image MISSANGELFACE
    Just wanted to say thank you for your sweet comments. Made my day :-)
    3190 days ago
  • v 60SIXTY
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    To both give and receive support, I suggest joining and participating in at least one Spark TEAM. When you signed up, SP offered you a "Spark Class" which is a team for the newbies who signed up the week you did.

    I found this Spark Quiz loaded with useful information for newbies:
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    3195 days ago
  • v MISSRUTH
    Welcome to SparkPeople!! This site is just full of information, tips, and tools to help us achieve our goals. Best of all is the caring community of other members, ready to help us when the going gets rough.

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    3195 days ago