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So, I'm trying to do things differently, in every aspect of my life, including my relationship with food. I am tired of gaining and loosing the same 20-40 pounds! Yet this journey is WAY more than loosing the weight. I'm tired of eating to cope with stress or boredom. I'm tired of mindless eating and then wondering how I have to dig my fat clothes out, again! I am set on a new course... One of true self discovery and one that will help me sustain a healthy relationship with food for the remainder of my lifetime. I hope the support I find here will help me on my new journey!

Member Since: 3/10/2012

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My Goals:
To learn how to have a healthier relationship with food. To not continue to gain and loose the same 20-40 pounds over and over, again. To not obsesss over food, worry or become anxious about indulging once in a while or denying myself anything of my favorites. To learn how to eat in moderation, to stop eating when I am satisfied (not full to the point of feeling stuffed or sick), to eat when I am physically hungry (not emotionally hungry), and to not beat myself up, mercilessly, if I fall short of my expectations.

My Program:
Maintain a healthy caloric intake, eating what my body needs to nourish it, not to feed my emotions, alleviate my bordem and break poor eating habits and coping mechanisms surrounding food.
Currently I have been keeping a detailed food journal of everything that passes my lips and the time I ate. I also work out 5-6 days a week at the gym or outside. This includes spinning, boot camp, Pilates, weight lifting, biking, hiking and trail running. I enjoy the challenge of working out and also keep an exercise journal to motivate me.

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My name is Dawn. I turned 45 today (6/12/14). I have struggled with my weight and body image as far as I can recall.
At my heaviest (2002-ish) I weighed 204 pounds and at my lightests adult weight I have been in the high 130's. My current goal is maintain around 130 pounds. I am 5'6.5" tall with a medium frame. I tended to gain the same 20-40 pounds over and over, and usually "catch" myself when I reach a weight in the high 170's. I am trying to stop this cyclical insanity by working on my unhealthy relationship with food. I am eager to maintain a healthy, reasonable goal weight.

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Heaviest known weight ~ 2002 was 204 and 48% body fat!

Lowest recalled weight: (~1987) high 130's . Lowest recently 124 which was too low for me..

Initial goal weight: 143 pounds. Goal weight range 128 +/- a few pounds. Size 4-6.

Height: 5'6"+ with medium bone structure.

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    Thanks so much for sharing, not just your successes but struggles as well. It makes me feel not so alone in my struggles.
    I have been "breaking my own rules" too and that is frustrating to me. I will work through it and am determined to prevail. I'm trying to autopsy the reasons for my binges and reasons for thinking I can "get away with it". That is old thinking for me. I have never been able to "get away with it (cheating myself of a healthy diet and lifestyle, and/or crazy day long binges, etc). Living unhealthy always catches up with me, always!
    I am hell bent on hitting that 5 year... I will make it happen!
    I hope you are well and that your struggles with lessen in time, too. I will keep you posted on my progress come next year.... Thanks again, so much for all your safe advice!

    1322 days ago
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    Once again, great to hear from you, though I'm sorry you are going through such challenging times. I, too, have been wavering, but it has been more of a result of a big decrease in hunger without a big decrease in the desire for the pleasure of meals. Sigh. I'm a few pounds up but holding steady for the most part. I just had dinner of a salmon patty, green beans, a carrot, and a few potato chips, plus half a cup of grapes and a plum. I report all this because of the irony: My body feels as if I've binged. But if I eat less, I still don't feel great. The irrational part is that I choose now to break my own rules as a kind of rebellion. I"m not getting what I want from food anymore, so I say WTH. I'm not sure why this has happened. My doctor is mystified. I'm slowly becoming more resigned to it. I figure, if I came down with some illness that caused such a reaction, would I rebel and eat more to somehow spite the illness? I hope not.

    You'll find your rhythm. A simple core of moderate, orderly eating can sustain us through lots of stressors. In fact, random eating is probably a stressor for people like us! But we will until we don't. It's that simple.

    Best wishes on your move and other changes. emoticon emoticon
    1322 days ago
  • v OOLALA53
    Thank you again for leaving me such a flattering message! I consider it part of my life's work to support others in eating sanity, so I"m glad to hear anything I said played a part. Now I feel inspired, too! I can't say my lessons have extended to other parts of my life. Still working on that. BTW, was my message to you on a blog or private? Maybe I need to review it for my present purposes!

    Thank you, and keep up the good work! emoticon
    1468 days ago
  • v OOLALA53
    You can't imagine how gratifying it is to hear from you. I'm so glad something I said made a difference no matter where you applied the insights. They weren't mine personally. Judith Beck is famous for recommending that people make index cards with helpful mottos. Her version is that hunger and cravings are not an emergency, but it's the same thing. The other one I picked up from various people I had read about on Spark. It's a hard one to face, but true. I couldn't keep waiting for someone else to tell me how to make it easier or to stop me from eating. I just had to be the one to keep the food out of my mouth at the wrong times. Glad you've pulled it off! One year down, four more until the change is considered likely to remain permanent. I think knowing the odds helps.
    2046 days ago
    thank you so much for calling me beautiful :)
    I hope some day you will share your face with us too.
    You have lost a lot of weight...congrats :) emoticon
    2231 days ago
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