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What can I say???? I just can't seem to get t together. My mind knows what I need to do, and yet.... I fight it every step of the way. It is not as if I don't want to be healthier and thinner.... so what is wrong with me?!? I have read all kinds of information, been on and off of SP for several years, but I can't seem to stick with it. I will be going along really well with nutrition and exercise and it takes nothing to knock me off track. I am praying this time I can figure it out and really stick it through. I absolutely hate the way I feel right now... in my clothes, in my body and in my mind. This is no way to live. Lord help me really get it this time!


Sooooo...... I am starting over once again. It seems like I just cannot keep my motivation up and stay strong. At the begining of the year I was set on sticking with it. I had over 120 days of continuous exercise, I was eating right... usually :-) there was still some learning to do... and in those 4 months lost only4 pounds. Now I know it's not the # so much as how you feel, etc. I was feeling good, but there was no change in inches or clothing. I was already feeling depressed and like it wasn't worth it and then there was a tragic death in my family. I just lost all motivation. I knew I should eat right, I should continue to exercise... but I just couldn't. I am now at my all time high weight and feel "gross" all the time. I want to do this for me, my kids, my husband, and my father who passed coming on three years. I am praying that this will be THE TIME... the time that everything I know will somehow meld with everything I feel... the time where I will finally get it... the time will I won't give up...


I have tried all my life to lose weight. But after losing my father to pancreatic cancer Feb 2010 I really felt the need to make it happen. I was doing well, and then stumbled through June. I found this site and now am on my way to making it happen!


Well I fell back into my old lifestyle and even though I tried numerous times during 2011, I just did not have the commitment to make it work. Life got in the way... I got in the way... But now is the time to refresh my life. I have found the excitement I had in the begining. Instead of feeling like something I "gotta do" . I am now excited and wanna do it! Here's is to 2012!!!!!

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