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My name is Carol, and I've had a weight issue since I was seven years old. I've had short windows of being a normal weight, but never allowed myself to enjoy normalcy for long. Am I an emotional eater? You bet I am! I eat when I'm happy, sad, bored, anxious... I eat to celebrate or to mourn. I'm not fussy.

Back in 2002, I enjoyed some much-deserved success on the Atkins diet. But in 2003, I managed to find the proverbial Job From Hell... and promptly put on over 50 pounds. Since then, I've tried low carbing again, Medifast and starvation. Nothing works for me. I read once that women, especially... some women... use fat as a means to be invisible. I feel this is true. It doesn't always work, of course, but for the most part. And now that I'm OLD... well... nothing makes a woman more invisible than old age. So... *POOF*... can you see me now?
Here it is... November, 2018. Back in June, I hoisted my fat ass back up onto the wagon. Since then... by forbidding my internal Fat Chick to take charge... I've managed to shed 37 pounds. No applause, please. Frankly, it's embarrassing to keep losing and gaining the same weight over and over. Every time I think this time is for real... that I'm going to finally make it to my ideal weight... but every time something happens to make me put it all back on. Maybe this time will be different? I don't know. I can only try... again.

November. The beginning of FOOD SEASON. One of my many blessings it that I'm working from home now. I won't be subjected to the deadly (for me) pigfests. I don't keep a candy dish on my home desk. THAT was a joke. I put it out for others, but I was refilling it twice a day to replenish what I ate. I'll blame that on my internal Fat Chick, too.

Member Since: 1/22/2006

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My Goals:
` Get healthy

` Retire someday... and enjoy it painfree

` Wear a smaller size

` See the 100's again

' To not fear restaurant booths, airplane seats & others' cars

` Feel great in clothes again

` Feel great ... PERIOD

My Program:
` Portion control

` Paying attention to my stress eating

` Logging my food in SparkPeople

` Exercising somewhat regularly. Is every Saturday regularly?

` Drinking more water.

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I'm Carol Andra from the heart of Silicon Valley, California.

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