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Don't judge me by my outer appearance. It's just the aging and chaning shell of who I am ...

Look inside of me at who I truly am and you will clearly see...

that I am beautiful.


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I am a very shy girl who has been overweight since the age of 6.

I went on my first diet at the age of 12 by buying some advertised weight loss pills that almost took my life.

I became a vegetarian at the age of 16 and did not eat any meat. I was on a strict carbohydrate diet since, the saying back then was eating carbohydrates will help you lose weight. My highest weight at that time was 295lbs and I got down to 249lbs and hit a plateau. I, also, became very unhealthy with the lack of protein. My hair was falling out, had poor concentration, and was extremely weak. My poor dieting habits, also, caused serious hormonal changes.

At the age of 17, I bought a book called Enter The Zone by Barry Sears and read it. The plan was designed the exact same way the bible says to eat. It taught me difference of carbohydrates and I figured out why I hit a plateau and could not go passed I started eating poultry meat again: white meats, eggs, seafood, and meat substitutes. My hormones rebalanced, my concentration was sharper, and I had lots of energy. I knew then that this diet was one that I would not do just to lose weight but, one I could continue for the rest of my life ļ. THANK YOU BARRY SEARS! Of course, I hopped on and off my diet many times. Highest weight topped in at 325 lbs in my teen years.

I really did not get too serious about The Zone Diet until the age of 24. I had tipped the scale at 390lbs. I was on the border of the 400lbs mark which really scared me. All my life I had dealt with the embarrassment, harassment, and cruelty of being overweight, even from my own family. I wanted to make a positive weight-loss change. To do that I knew I had to replace bad foods that I craved and that usually made me hop off my diet with healthier choices.

I was finally happy and felt accomplished and taking control of my life. A turning point was when my mom was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer, September 17th, 2004. I took care of her and kept up with my life-style change and try to get her on the same plan, more scared to eat bad things for the fear of it leading me in the future to get cancer. I was her caretaker and did all I could for her. When she passed away, August 2005, I was 228lbs. The lowest I had been since the age of 12 or so. My angel, best friend, sweet mom was gone and it tore me apart. Everything seemed like nothing to me, I only existed . Days were nothing, time was nothing. It all was nothing. I slipped into such a deep depression I didn¡¦t care or fear cancer anymore, because I wished I could have taken hers onto myself.

Trying to feel again and notice days for what they truly are, I was back on the Yo-Yo thing. Going from 270lbs back down to 233 lbs which became my plateau point. I was dong fairly well going back and forth from 270 to the 230¡¦s finding that 230 was a testing time for me that if I didn¡¦t lose not a single lb for 2weeks to 1 month I would give up and bounce back up to 270lbs. In January 2006, my dad was diagnosed with diabetes. I helped him plan a diet and easy going exercise routine. He did not follow the diet plan to well and continued to eat lots of starches.

July 8th, 2006. I found out my dad had cancer. Another turning point in my life. I just could not believe it. I still had not gotten over my mom having cancer and now he had it. As the moth progressed we found out, his cancer too, was incurable. He passed away August 2006, a year and a few days after my mom.

I slipped back into a non existent state, I packed on the lbs getting back up to 318lbs which is my current weight, this is were my new journey starts.

Even though God has taken so much away from me, my parents, and there is nothing or no one who could ever replace them. He has given me the time to understand and know that they are in a much better place. He has sent me another earth angel, my fiance, to help me through things I could not do alone. I still have my wonderful bothers.

My Fiance: For the first time in my life, I truly feel loved and accepted for who I am . He thinks I am beautiful just as I am and I am not shy around him. He is the only person I have hugged and not felt discomfort with it, I feel the actual hug as it's suppose to feel. Since God needed my other 2 angels , my parents, he gave me a new one so I can have my own future :) and I thank him daily. He has never failed me yet.

Member Since: 2/9/2007

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My Goals:
to lose 63lbs of embarrassment by getting back down to 299lbs...

1st: Get to 350lbs
2nd:Get to 340lbs
3rd: Get to 330lbs
4th: Get to 320lbs
5th: Get to 310lbs
6th: Get to 300lbs
7th: Milestone 299lbs

Get back down to 296lbs : Picture weight

Weight needed to lose to Reach 100lbs lost mark again : 289lbs

My Program:
I am currently on a modified liquid diet plan that I found on youtube that includes The Zone Diet Plan.

My program will slowly change as I lose weight from a liquid diet to a Zone Healthy lifestyle diet.

I eat once every hr to 1.5hrs 9-10 times a day with 1-2 solid meals and the rest liquid meal replacements.

I currently do 25 minutes of cardio and 10 minutes strength training 2 times per day - once in the morning and once in the evening 5-6 times per week.

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Making videos and taking pictures on the 11th of every month to show my progress.

Personal Information:
Highest Weight: 390:
Current Weight: 362:
Last SP Weight: 318:
Lowest Weight While Dieting: 228:

Mini Goal Lbs:175
Goal Weight: 150

Yes, I gained all but 1lb of my heighest weight back! Last I was on SP I started at 318 and ended at 286. And from that to 389 and now 362.

Other Information:
Plateaus, Cravings, Bings, Junk Food, Starting Out, Failure, Giving Up

1)I am happier when I am in control of myself and I feel better living a healthier life-style. 2) Pictures shows my progress! Keeping up to date before and after shots of myself encourages me. 3) that if I fail or give up, I can and will start again and that one day, I will reach my goal!

How to eat in proportions even when I am eating out of the boundaries of my diet. When I eat something out the boundaries of my diet, I tend to hop off the diet.

I eat not because I am hungry sometimes but, because it tastes good or just because it is there.

If I start eating something I can't stop eating it until it's completely gone, especially chips and candy.

It's easy for me to jump off my diet but hard for me to start back up. If i can control the things above, it would be a lot easier

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    Great works are performed, not by strength, but by perseverance.-----Samuel Johnson

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    2603 days ago
  • v JBRENDA4
    i am glad to see that you are still here..
    i took a break and boy am i ready to start over..

    keep it positive...
    that is what i need to do too..

    we can do this together. emoticon
    2802 days ago
    Just want to say and wish you well on your walk to better health. We can make it.
    3226 days ago
    One day at a time!! You can do it!!!
    3515 days ago
  • v HONEYBEAR1461
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