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""The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes that she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair; her beauty is seen in her eyes, the doorway to her heart, because that is where her love resides" "

"The road to success is not straight. There’s a curve called failure, a loop called confusion, speed bumps called friends, and red lights called enemies. Caution signs called family and flat tires called jobs. But if you have a spare called determination and an engine called perseverance, with insurance called faith… And the drive to make it, you’ll reach a place called success”- Baby Cham- Rudeboy Pledge


My name is Tammy .. here is my story......
Only child, divored parents, born and raised in A Chicago GIRL!!!! ............blah..blah..blah........ My life didnt really have much omph till I was a Senior in H.S. I got my 1st boyfriend ended in a horrible relationship both physically and mentally abusive. I ended up pregnant at 18 and had no clue what to do, or how to do it. The only problem was I used food to comfort my soul. I ate when I was happy, sad, mad, angry, excited. I ate from being bored, stressed, tired, over worked, nervous or overjoyed. I opened my eyes dumped the looser in my life.. Met another man while pregnant and we were together 7 years when I became pregnant with my 2nd son and put on another 40lbs. I stepped on the scale one winter day after our youngest son was born and I saw 215 stop on my scale. I just stood there and began to cry still standing there somehow thinking in my mind it was going to change or something. After a few minutes I realized that was me, I was 215....

I started doing the firm nightly and ended up loosing almost 25 pounds, but stress, nerves, drama, and old habits slowly came back into my life. I ended up back at over 200 pounds again. I did a lot of emotional eating at night when everyone was asleep and they would not know I was consuming countless calories nightly. I was a closet eater and was ashamed of my body, my weakness, and my laziness.

I ended up moving to Florida in 2002, found a job, started meeting people and going out on weekends. Drinking began to be a Thursday thru Sunday night ritual and even though I was not eating a lot I was drinking A LOT. I did the yo-yo dieting, some weight watchers, I did LA Weightloss, I joined Gold's Gym, even ventured to the Atkins diet, oh dont forget slim fast. NONE worked.. simply because I was not mentally and emotionally ready to commit my life to a lifestyle change, instead I was dieting and that does not work. In the midst of my yo-yo dieting lets add a case of skin caner in my life...(which I conquered...)

I began having female issues on Christmas day of 2006 and finally in August of 2007 I went to my Dr. found out I needed a partial hystorectomy. They operated and it was a complete mess, somehow my body ended up in worse condition than before surgery. I then had to find another Dr. who informed me I now needed a full hystorectomy right away becuse of the incorrect procedures performed during my partial. So on December 12, 07 I had a full hystorectomy to solve my issues. From the surgery I developed 2 pulmonary embolisms (blood clots) in my chest near my heart. Through all of this all the Dr's said I would gain between 10-15lbs from surgery but I refuse to become a statistic. I sat at home one day while I was off work for 5 weeks and just sat on my bed and cried. I was so unhappy with my health, my body, and the way I felt.. I decided that day to make a change in my lifestyle...

Thru all my health problems we had became engaged [[05/07/07]] but he was living in Il and I was in FL. that alone was so hard on us, so I sacrificed my friends & family to have OUR family together in Chicago. .... BIG MISTAKE.. HUGE... HUGE.... so fast forward to 2k10 My boys are 15 & 9, Im still weighing in at 149, Im in the process of getting divorced, FINALLY MOVED BACK TO FLORIDA AFTER 14 MONTHS AWAY.....back with my friends & family... WHERE I SO NEEDED TO BE... THE 1 PLACE I AM TRULY HAPPY.....~!~

I have learned several life lessons on my journey this far, the main one being that I will NEVER allow another person belittle me, disrespect me, or take my self worth away. I am better then that and know my heart is amazing. I have so much to give to others and so much to learn from others. I will start to stand up for myself and not allow others to use, disrespect, or intimidate me.....

*** Updates***

I have my t-shirt and my official running number(#45), and I will forever treasure them.. not just because I crossed a line but because I set a goal, I worked hard to acheive my goal.. and I had an amazing friend and motivator there every step of the way running.. (and sweating our butts off together) next to me......Thanks my kindered spirit... !!!

My Scheduled runs.......

1st race:
John Clay 5k - 08/31/08
Time - 0:36:26
Average mile - 11.62
Place - 417 / 526 overall

Pilot 5k - 10/04/08
Time 34:20
Average mile - 10.96
Place 136 / 168 overall

Run from the Cops 5k - 10/25/08
Time 35:21:12
Average mile - 11.28
Place 123 / 226 (womens division) (487 runners total)
**to my defense even though it was a slow time the race was uphill over a 1.5 mile bridge and back to the finish line in the fog...{I was not trained for the uphill or fog}...

Naples 8k - 10/26/08 (my 1st 8k ever....)
Time 59:46:01
Average mile 12.31
Place ??????


Just an update on my measurements from my SP
Day 1 measurements 04/09
Weight 170
Neck = 13"
Chest = 36.5"
Waist = 31.5"
Hips = 42"
Rt. Thigh = 23"
Rt. Calf = 15"
RtBicept = 11.5"

Day 100 measurements 07/12
Weight 145.7.....(down24.3lbs)
Neck = 12.25".....(down 0.75")
Chest = 35".....(down 1.5")
Waist = 28.5".....(down3.0")
Hips = 39.....(down 3.0")
Rt. Thigh = 22.....(down 1.0")
Rt. Calf = 14.5".....(down 0.5")
Rt. Bicept = 10.5".....(down 1.0")

SO in 100 days I have lost 24.3 pounds and shed 10.75" over my entire body. Its amazing that just a few pounds can make such a drastic difference in my appearance, my attitude, and most of all my confidence..... I can finally see my goal and it almost within reach, I know what I have to do.. I know how to do it.. but most importantly I do know I CAN DO IT.....

Member Since: 4/9/2008

Fitness Minutes: 8,834

My Goals:

* I would love to do a 5k in 2008 ~ acheived 08/2008

I love life and just want my energy level, and my confidence to match that energy. I have 2 amazing boys in my world. I want him to be proud of them accomplishments.

My Program:
I am becoming a gym-junkie.. I am there 7 days a week.
I am now a runner .. A REAL every day I do 30-40 minutes on the precor or eliptical machine to start. I then spend at least 30-45 minutes focusing on a certain area of the body, (ex. Monday is leg day so I work my legs till they burn real good) then I do between 300-500 crunchies. I end it with running a mile or doing a mile on the stair master. I run at least 10 miles a week, the distance depends on weather and what time of the day is is. Im getting better about giving my body a rest though, Fridays is my easy day.. I do a lil cardio and crunchies, but very low impact and not to hard on my body.. I even have taken a few Fridays off since working out Friday night and 1st thing Saturday morning is pretty hard. Plus all our 5k's are early Saturday mornings.... gotta rest my legs....!!!

Personal Information:
Living in Florida now but born and raised a Chicago girl. Could not stand the -20 any longer. I opt for 75' in December with no shoveling or scrapping car windows!
I have 2 lil boys 15 and 9 who are my world I wake up every day hoping to make them proud of me any way possible. I am a complete Daddy's girl. I miss him daily he lives up in Il still so I only get to see him 2 times a year.

Other Information:
Im a marshmallow.. meaning I cant let a person cry alone.. I must join it. I am very sensative, and I wear my heart on my sleeve for all to walk on or cherish.

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