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My hubby and I on our 10th anniversary

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I am 32 years old and a mother to two beautiful children. My husband and I have been happily married for 10 amazing years. I have started over more times than I can count and I am done. I want to be healthy. I want to be happy. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to be able to play with my children.

I picked my username because the color blue symbolizes freedom. Freedom from my old life. Freedom from my weight holding me back. The Phoenix symbolizes rebirth and rising from the ashes.

Starting weight is 175 pounds and goal weight is 115 pounds. I do not have the extra money for a gym membership (although I do enjoy the occasional Zumba or Piloxing class) so the majority of my workouts will be done at home.

I have struggled with my weight for the last 13 years. When I graduated from high school I weighed 123 pounds and wore a size 4. Then my husband and I started dating and by our first anniversary I had gained 20 pounds and was wearing a (uncomfortably tight) size 9. Over the years I gained more weight, and in 2004 I decided enough was enough. I had hit 160 pounds (on my 4'11" frame) and decided I was going to make changes. I lost 25 pounds over the next year and then got pregnant with my daughter. After she was born I got back down to my pre-pregnancy weight. In 2008 I got pregnant with my son, and I am still struggling to lose that weight now. I am currently 175 pounds with an ultimate goal weight of 115. That number is not set in stone. I know that as I progress on my journey I will change my mindset, and I want to be strong and have muscle, not just be skinny, so maybe as I get closer I will be happy with 125 pounds. I just have to wait and see.

I grew up in an alcoholic household and am the oldest of four girls. As the oldest I have a hard time taking care of me. I always want to care for others. My youngest sister is only 15 and since my parents split up and my mom still drinks way too much my sister spends a lot of time with my family. I also struggle with a mild case of depression. I have tried anti-depressants, but I don't like the way they make me feel - all fuzzy and kind of like I'm just floating through. I would love to get this under control with diet, exercise, and regular counseling sessions.

Get out of the 170's - DONE!!! 169.8 on 7/27/12
Get out of the 160's
Get out of the 150's
Get out of the 140's
Get out of the 130's
Get out of the 120's
Complete C25K
Complete a 5k race
Run in a 5k race
Complete a 5k in under 45 minutes
Complete a 5k in under 40 minutes
Complete a 5k in under 35 minutes
Complete a 5k in under 30 minutes
Wear my favorite size 10 dress pants
Wear a size 8
Wear a size small
Have boudoir photographs taken to give my husband
Have someone ask if I have lost weight - DONE! 8/2/2012
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Member Since: 7/7/2012

Fitness Minutes: 1,765

My Goals:
I want to feel sexy.
I want my kids to be proud of me.
I want to be free of everything that is holding me back right now.
I want to be a role model for my family.

My Program:
Walking, Zumba, Piloxing, Strength Training

Personal Information:
I live in a small town in NY. I am a SAHM mom and a family/portrait photographer.

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  • v BOOSMOM03
    Hey you! I am relaxing tonight! After the last two days, and the fact that I'm already over my calories burned goal for the week by 400 calories or so (with two days left to burn more!), I decided I've earned a day off. :) I'm laying in bed with a book and planning to read until I fall asleep - hopefully very soon!

    I hope you're having a healthy day! :)
    2143 days ago
  • v LISBETH636
    Thank you so much for your encouragement and support! It's people like you that make Sparkpeople a wonderful community. Just stay positive and don't sweat the small stuff and you will reach your goals. I've found that if I set several small goals within my journey, it is much easier to stick with the program. For example, going a week without touching the break room candy drawer or not having any diet soda. You can do it!
    2143 days ago
    Thank you so much for the comment on my page! It really made my day!!
    2143 days ago
  • v TRACY31502
    Thanks for adding me and for your comment on my page! I hope you are having a great week!!!
    2144 days ago
    Aww thanks you so much! Thanks for stopping by my blog. Hope you have a great day :)
    2145 days ago
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