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Hi...I've been struggling with my weight and binge eating for several years. I'm always on a diet or breaking my diet--never just eating for health and hunger. I want to change things and finally be at peace...to eat for health and be at a normal weight in a fit body I can be proud of.

I have lost weight several times over my life but never have stayed at goal weight longer than a few weeks. Now I'd like to just find a healthy weight that is manageable for me and to stop using food and alcohol as a form of entertainment or solace.

Update: 01/02/2017 - Well I never did get back to my goal that I hit for a split second in 2010. In fact, I steadily gained back the 30 I lost plus another 14 pounds. I started (AGAIN) in August of 2016 and I've been slowly losing since. I'm now 8 pounds from a new goal which is higher (yet more appropriate for me) than my other goal but I'm feeling pretty happy these days. It's nice to be moving in the right direction again.......


Member Since: 9/25/2010

Fitness Minutes: 66,519

My Goals:
I would like to lose weight and be fit. More importantly, I'd like to feel comfortable in my own skin and proud of myself. (Well, I reached my goal weight and then I gained back 30 pounds...ugh). Now I've adjusted that weight and am hoping to hit my new and more realistic goal weight once again.

Run a 1/2 marathon (scheduled Nov. 7, 2010!) COMPLETED!!! :)

Obtain and maintain a healthy relationship with food. Stop yo-yo dieting....

Lol....have one size of clothes in my closet that fit from year to year instead of several different sizes I shuffle in between. Ok, let's make that one SMALL size of clothes I fit in from year to year.


My Program:
I'm basically starting over again today (Feb. 10, 2013) and my plan is to start slow but be consistent. Strength training 3 times a week and cardio 3 times a week/30 minutes each time

02/03/2017 - Going to Orangetheory Fitness 4-5 times a week and tracking my steps. I'm sticking to about 1200 calories a day except for Saturday nights where I allow myself a few drinks and some cheat-type food (i.e. pizza, thai food, or whatever sounds good). Working on being kind to myself. That's the hardest tool for me to implement......



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I'm only 5 ft 1 and 1/2.

I work and live in Southern California. I'm married and have two kids, a wonderful supportive husband and two dogs.


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  • v KDYLOSE
    Glad to hear you're liking IF too. It's funny, isn't it - when described to people they think it sounds like deprivation but that's not how it feels at all, it feels more like freedom from dieting.
    19 days ago
  • v BUTTONPOPPER1
    Billie, thank you so much for reading and commenting on my blog about losing Joey. I'm so sorry you had to go through the same thing in June with Stitch. They were similar in age, so I think we both have a very big treasure trove of memories of our beloved dogs. It will take a while to get over this raw pain, but I know there will come a day when our grief will have subsided enough to let us welcome another little sweetheart into our lives.

    I hope you are doing well!
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    32 days ago
  • v TEENY_BIKINI
    Happy June!!

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    134 days ago
  • v KDYLOSE
    Thank you! Actually I was going to mention, some of us have started using the SparkGoodies as a way to have private chats, it's less unwieldy than the SparkMail.
    156 days ago
  • v BUTTONPOPPER1
    Billie, I was delighted to hear from you! It has been a while since we connected, and I have wondered how you're doing. I'm sorry to hear you've had your struggles, too, but I sure understand how that can lessen your desire to blog and go all in on SP. You're right. This is more than a weight loss website--otherwise I really would have disappeared long ago. I've seen friends lose fifty pounds and stay on maintenance for two years while I remain entrenched in the same old habits that brought me here in the first place. So it's been embarrassing the few times I've posted a weight ticker on my page and as soon as it registered, say, a 2-pound weight loss, that would be the end of that, until I removed that ticker from view.

    But what I've found, especially from this latest episode of almost banishing myself from the company of those who've succeeded, is that SparkPeople is an amazing gathering of people who want to help others. I'm always telling my daughter who has emotional problems and dreads social gatherings because she feels she's so bad at talking, "Just go and don't think about yourself--how you look or sound to others. Just focus on the other person and forget about yourself." Well, sometimes we fall into depression and can't help but focus on ourselves and wonder what's "wrong" with us, but when that happened to me a couple of days ago and I announced my intention to self-banish, I was met with the most amazing outpouring of support and encouragement, and this made me vow to stay here no matter what. Even if I never lose weight, it will be worth it to be with these kind people, to forget about how I look or what they think about me and my weight, and just learn from them and do what I can to give solace when needed.

    As for weight, we're still alive, and every day is a new chance. I'm 62, and I'm amazed that I keep on getting new chances! I'll be okay if I don't lose these extra 40 pounds, but I think I'll be just really happy if I do, and it sure makes it a lot more fun and seem a lot more doable if I'm here in the presence of lots of other people who are striving. We can DO this!

    Thanks so much for writing and sharing your thoughts, Billie. It really brightened my day to hear from you. I appreciate your friendship.
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    160 days ago

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