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May 2009 - Starting weight 382+ lbs


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Hi there. My name is Julie, I'm 31 and currently in graduate school getting my Masters of Science in Mechanical Engineering.

That makes me sound much smarter than I actually am, trust me.

I have battled with my weight, my self image and my self worth since a very young age. I've had food issues and bulimia in some way, shape or form since I was eleven. Twenty years of my life have been spent hating myself, abusing my body and pushing away the people who have tried to love me; all because I didn't feel worthy. With the exception of a few years in my teens, I've always been the fat girl. I have no recollection of being thin in my adult life and often worry about who I will be when I'm no longer fat. With this in mind, I've made a conscious effort to make this a journey of self-discovery as well as weight loss. As cliche as it sounds, I need to start loving myself.

My wake up call came in the summer of 2009. My highest recorded weight was 382 lbs in June of 2009, although it was undoubtedly at least a few pounds higher in the weeks prior. I had just graduated with my Bachelor of Science in Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering, and I clearly remember opening the email that contained the photo proofs from my graduation ceremony. My heart sank into my stomach and tears immediately filled my eyes. There it was, photographic proof that my weight was completely out of control. While I could avert my eyes when I passed a mirror or surreptitiously disappear to the restroom whenever a friend or family member took out a camera during gatherings, there was no way to avoid the woman staring back at me on my computer screen. I decided then that I needed to take control of my weight.

While my weight loss began (slowly) in the summer of 2009, my commitment to heal, to truly start treating myself with love and compassion, has just begun. No surgery. No pills. No fad diets. Just calorie counting and exercise. By chronicling my journey I hope to learn from my mistakes, gain insight, and hopefully in the end inspire others.


Member Since: 2/6/2011

Fitness Minutes: 210

My Goals:
I'd like to be healthy, happy and confident in who I am.

I'd like the first thing that people notice about me NOT be that I'm fat.

I'd like to run a 5k. Perhaps even a marathon eventually.

Lastly, I'd like to weigh less than 200lbs; eventually 168ish to be considered 'normal'.


My Program:
Eating around 1500 calories a day.

Drinking at least 100 oz of water a day.

Exercising more.



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