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Welcome. A bit about me...

Another new year, 2010, another new start. I'm determined to make this year the one where I stay committed to getting healthy. Nothing is going to stop me now!

I live with recurrent major depression and anxiety, along with dissociative identity disorder, borderline personality disorder and obsessive compulsive personality disorder, all of which affect my day to day life. I'm a perfectionist with all or nothing, black and white thinking. I get overwhelmed easily, resulting in my giving up. I'm tired of living in the shadows of self hatred, doubt and unworthiness. I am slowly opening my wings to allow my inner beautiful swan to emerge with grace and dignity.

I'm not on a diet, I'm creating a permanent lifestyle change.

So, here's to becoming a swan!

June 1/09 Update: I had my hiatus hernia surgery on May 27th (laparoscopic nissen fundoplication surgery with collis gastroplasty). I came home from the hospital on May 31. For the next 8 weeks, until July 31st, I'm to eat pureed foods with the only exercise being light walking. I'm still going to work hard on getting healthy and look at this surgery as the catalyst that lit the fire under my butt!

Aug 31/09 Update: Back at it again. Weight rose to 238 lbs. I'm angry and disappointed, but also determined to get back on track. I'm on a new medication, Zyprexa, for my anxiety and it has really helped, but the side effects are constant sugar & carb cravings and slow metabolism. So, I've had to re-evaluate my goals and set my weight loss at a slower pace and focus more on getting active. I reset all my SparkPeople goals so I don't get trapped into ruminating about the past few months. Today is a new day, a new start, a new me!



"When inward tenderness finds the secret hurt, pain itself will crack the rock and ah! let the soul emerge." ~ Rumi

"Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul." ~ Ezra Taft Benson

"Stop living life for what's around the corner and start enjoying the walk down the street." ~ Grant L. Miller

Member Since: 5/7/2008

Fitness Minutes: 31,435

My Goals:
lose 14 lbs by the end of March 2013

My Program:
brisk walking 8 km/day
low fat eating

Personal Information:
50 yrs old - married 30 yrs - 2 adult daughters 29 & 38 - 4 doggies - home is Vancouver Island, BC, Canada.

Other Information:
crochet, knit, read, learn new information from the internet & books, computer

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    Hi 2BASWAN,

    I am coming to Victoria in October along with many other SparkPeople members, some from your area, to run the Victoria 1/2 Marathon on 10.10.10. Some members may be running the shorter race and others the full marathon. I hope you can join us, if not for running, just in the fun!

    2817 days ago
  • v NANALD
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    Just swimming through SPARK to let you know that today is
    “Swim a Lap Day’!
    So, the (((( Sending SKINNY Vibes! )))) Team is throwing a virtual POOL PARTY today!

    If you can get to a pool, have fun burning calories in the water! Or just enjoy some sunshine, relaxation, and tunes!

    Have a ‘Swimmingly Super’ Thursday!

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    2857 days ago
  • v ANSING
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    Congrats! 28 pounds is a WONDERFUL loss!
    2872 days ago
  • v LEAKAY59
    emoticon Cathi! 28 pounds? WOW! What an achievement! I do have to assume (and hope) you haven't logged in your weight for a while? You're doing great!
    2872 days ago
  • v TINA48R
    Lots of emoticon to you my Friend

    Hope you have a Wonderful & Beautiful day today!!!
    2913 days ago
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