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NKOTB concert 8/2013 at current weight of 182


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I have been battling my weight since I was 10 years old. It has always been up and down and one yo-yo diet after another. My highest weight was 230 in 2010. December 2010 my sister got engaged and the first thing that came to my mind was -- OMG. I am going to ruin her wedding because of how heavy I am. January 2011 I cut my calories and started walking 3-4 times a week. By May I hit 208. The pounds were not coming off quick enough for me and in passing conversation, a friend told me about a white pill called Adipex. I made the appointment and by the end of May I had my first bottle. I was addicted.. but in addiction you always pay a price. Continuing on... After I started the Adipex, I cut my calories to 900-1200 and began Zumba and Rockin' Body 6 days a week. The pounds were falling off. June 2012 at my sisters wedding I was 167 and felt FABULOUS. I wasn't the goal I wanted to be, but I still felt fabulous and so proud of myself that I did it. I lost weight for her wedding and I would not ruin her day.

Back to the price of addiction... I am really surprised my husband didn't divorce me in . I was extremely moody and constipated all the time (I ended up in the hospital because I had not had a BM in 2 weeks) and I was sleeping only 3-4 hours a night. They don't warn you of these issues when you sign up for their program. Or they do but I was so desperate, I didn't listen. Since I had lost weight, I decided that after the wedding I would quit taking Adipex. I went right back to my old eating habits and gained 25lbs, up to 192 in 6 months. Once again, I went back on the Adipex and I lost 10lbs and here I sit at that same weight, 182. I don't know how to quit the Adipex, but I know I need to. Cold turkey might be the only choice. I KNOW they work, but I also know they are quick fix and not a mind changing drug. I have an Adipex addiction and a food addiction. Adipex might make me feel not hungry, but when I am stressed or overworked or feeling lonely, they do not keep me from eating a pint of ice cream or all those cookies. I need to focus on changing the way I think and feel about food. I know that and I am hoping SparkPeople will give me the courage, positive influences and encouragement that I need to finally win the battle.

About me -- I am 34, married for almost 4 years to my best friend (together 11 1/2 years total) and mom to an awesome 10 year old son. I also have my own Guardian Angel named Tyler who I was blessed to meet and hold for 5 hours when he was born premature at 27 weeks. I work in accounts receivable field and have a new found love for yoga.

Member Since: 8/17/2013

Fitness Minutes: 105

My Goals:
Reach 137 and gain confidence in myself.

My Program:
Calorie counting and yoga to start off.

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Cincinnati, OH

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