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I officially joined Spark People in 2010 and was super motivated to lose weight. I started cooking and tracked all of my food for a good 3 months before fatigue set in and I quit. During those three months I was able to lose 34 pounds and I was sure that that would be motivation enough to continue. It wasn't.

Fast forward to February of 2012 and I had gained back the 34 pounds that I had lost plus an additional 15 for good measure. I was 21 pounds away from weighing 300 pounds and I was more depressed than ever. I remember walking down the street and crying on the phone with my mother because one of my cousins had uploaded a picture of me to Facebook from a wedding we went to and I looked atrocious.

Somehow I had managed to avoid looking at myself from the neck down and was convinced that I carried my weight well and no one could tell how big I really was. THAT WAS A LIE.

I started seeing a therapist who told me that I needed to be accountable to someone for my food. I'm not a very religious person but a few days later, my mother called me to tell me about a 12 step program for compulsive overeaters. I was not receptive to the idea of getting involved in a program like that but some voice inside of me knew that I was in crises and I thought that I would be crazy to turn down this lifeline that was extended to me. Thank goodness I gave it a try!

I'm eleven months in now and I've lost 97 pounds so far. I feel like I'm more in control than ever before and I'm eating really healthy and plentiful foods. I've still got some weight to lose but I'm not focused on that. I think about the things I learn each day and the journey that I'm on and I know that I'll be a stronger person when I get to the other end.

I have to remind myself everyday that time is passing, whether or not I'm doing what needs to be done to improve my life. If a year seems like too long to take off my weight...the year is passing anyway so I might as well get on my game.

Member Since: 7/30/2009

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I'm sticking to a very low carb diet. Absolutely no refined sugar. I've cut out processed foods with the exception of salad dressing and I'm exercising 3 days a week.

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I currently live in Washington, DC.

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    Thanks for the encouragement! Yep, I'm pretty happy with my first week. Now if I can just have 51 more just like it emoticon
    1882 days ago
  • v DEBRA0818
    I'm glad you understood what I meant by the "Fat Self" in my reflection on the Step Study page of the OA Team -- it was just a literary device to show the many ways I lie to myself about what I'm doing when I'm in the food. There is only one me and that me is choosing to work the steps and stay away from my binge behavior, gratefully, one day at a time. No reason I could give myself could equal the loving force of abstinence lived through God's grace.

    Your journey has taken you from where I was to where I want to go; God willing a year from today I'll be nearer to the person God created me to be.

    Cheers, Debra
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    1883 days ago
    thanks for the add welcome sp family
    2027 days ago
    Way To Go!!!!
    2204 days ago
  • v NIXY72
    Hey Done Girl -- Happy June!! I would like to wish you a everlasting renewal of energy and passion, for this is a time to celebrate the great potential you possess. May the sun shine upon you and fire up your heart to reach all of your goals and find joy in yourself and the world around you. Whatever battles you are fighting, whatever stresses may come your way, may you find energy, confidence, vitality and strength. This is the time to shine bright and show the world how beautiful you are. Embrace the summer-lit brilliance of each day and you will create a new life where all your wildest dreams come true. ~ Michelle

    If you ever need a shoulder, a friend or a virtual coffee at some point, drop by and say hello! I've just celebrated my SP eight month anniversary and am amazed at the absolutely incredible amount of support I've received with not only weight loss but life in general. ~ Michelle
    2205 days ago
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