MISSUSRIVERRAT
From looking over your blogs, it just strikes me that you are so very brave to open up, be honest about your feelings, and to keep trying so hard. That inspires me very much. I think it's called "fortitude" !
I am wondering if you are just very hard on yourself and very self-critical and that works against your progress socially? Perhaps physically too ? You HAVE made so much progress, even with the odds against you. You deserve a lot of credit. And I don't see you giving up. I just think the journey might go easier if you could give yourself a high five !
LAFEMMEDELALUNE
Happy almost 1 year Sparkiversary! :) Is the Happiness becoming more a part of your reality, or are you stuck in some way? Maybe a renewal of your goal would help?