seems like you have overcome quite a bit already. I would recommend you change you thinking about food controlling you. I struggle with eating too much sugary items and I realize that every time I eat something of that nature it is because I choose to do it. What I eat is all because of a choice that I made and the choice I made always first started with a thought. I thought about that candy bar. Then I often have a dialogue in my head about whether to eat it or not. Whatever happens ( I eat it or don't) is always because of a choice that I made.
I recommend after making a long term goal that you then break it into smaller goals. THis way you can focus on smaller changes and not be too overwhelmed, especially when you start school in the fall. Best of luck to you.
LION333 and to SparkPeople..Nice to have you with us on the journey to a healthier lifestyle.
A journal can be helpful at this time to see what you're feeling and what's going on around you that blocks your path. Once you learn/have a feeling what it is, it's much easier to choose ways to get past it.
You are stronger than you think! if you can go 15 months without the drugs or alcohol you can manage to eat better. don't worry about the scale right now just track what you do eat & start making some healthier choices. don't be so hard on yourself you are doing great just keep going
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Welcome to Sparkpeople,........... . This is a wonderful place to keep yourself motivated............ many great articles, information and teams/people all ready and willing to help keep you on track...........you can do this...............believe you can............ and you will......... blessings and hugs..............lita
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I can't even believe it. I stepped on the scale today to see a wopping 220. This is the heaviest I have ever been. I'm 19. I feel like there's no point because I can't do it! I always start and then give up. Im sick of it! I want to be happy in my own skin! Food controls me. I don't want to be controlled any more. Ive struggled with drug and alcohol addiction and am 15 months clean and sober! If i can do that i feel like i can do this. I am mentally recovering from my childhood abuse qnd just really trying to start a new better future. I start cosmotology school in the fall. If any one can give me some words of encouragement or share your story I would be so grateful! I really want to do this it just seems so hard. Please ! And thank you