Yes I did catch myself and I am grateful that is the case because I was so unhappy wearing cothes that were too tight and unflattering. Just to have started again feels better.
thanks for everyone's encouraging comments. And best wishes to all who are also starting over - we should never give up!
And as for perfectionism, well I'm afraid I am a perfectionist in most things and I have had to back away from this when looking after my health. However, I do keep a list of things on my computer homepage that lists my daily goals - things like eating properly, getting those 8 cups of water, doing my physio, etc. Even while I was ignoring so much, I still managed to do many of the things on my list so I was still ahead of the game.
And of course it doesn't hurt that the sun is shining springtime bright even if the snow is still over 2 feet deep!
happy spring to all.
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55 3/22/13 6:49 P
Hey, you caught yourself after a scant few weeks and you're back on the wagon now! Catching yourself in time is a skill in itself and you seem to have it.
I fell off in June 2010 and got back on in January 2012. This time round, I seem to be be reaping the fruits of having learned something from previous failures and I've gone from a 44 inch waist to a 30 inch waist. These learning experiences are good for something.
This is a very speculative theory - apologies in advance if I'm completely wrong - but: were you possibly a little bit *too* disciplined in the first half of the winter? If you had enjoyed a few more slices of pumpkin pie or a few more Christmas treats - deliberately decided to enjoy the detour and savoured every bite - might you have been able to hit the ground running again with your healthy eating lifestyle in the New Year? Obviously it's no better or no worse to be derailed at the end of one year or at the beginning of another, but maybe one option would have been more enjoyable than the other? I enjoyed being fairly lazy and indulgent in December. By mid-January I was back where I had been in mid-December and practically craving broccoli after all the sweet treats.
Your post was inspiring as I have fallen back into seriously bad habits. On top of that I've been beating myself up over it which you know then gets the whole vicious cycle going. And it's hard to break out of it.
I'm glad you are back on track. Hey, guess what? I'll be joining you!! Good luck on your weight loss journey!
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924 3/22/13 2:05 P
Everybody slips up. The important thing is that you want this enough that you've come back to the place that helped you before. You can do this!
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3/22/13 1:24 P
I think of this whole process as a lifetime journey. Sometimes I take a detour. It means that I am not going to get to my destination as soon as I would have, but it also means that I can get back on the road without feeling like I ended something and have to start back at the beginning. All work and no play makes Jill a defiant and unhappy girl. When I need a break, I choose one. Sometimes it pays to "see Rock City!", to keep the journey from getting too tedious.
There is also that "learn something from your experience" aspect to your break. I try not to waste my regret, but squeeze as much learning out of it as possible. What triggered your initial decision to stop sparking? (Yes, it was a decision. No matter how much it feels like "it just happened...") Was it boredom with the the foods you were eating? Feeling deprived? Being tempted on a special occasion or by a particular food? Who you were with? Some upset to your usual routines? Guilt about something that you ate, but really didn't want to see in the tracker?
The more you know, the more ability you have to make conscious decisions rather than be buffeted about by unconscious reactions to your circumstances and surroundings. It is all about claiming your power.
Best of luck to you as you resume your journey!
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3/22/13 1:05 P
As I tell all new members and those coming back,"Don't look at good health or weight loss with an all or nothing mentality". If the only healthy thing you did for yourself today was drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction.
Start with some simple changes first. Don't try to do everything at once or you will end up frustrated. As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". give yourself credit for all the positive things you do and don't beat yourself up because you're not perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy.
Remember, there is more to good health than a number that stares at us from between our toes in the morning. Look for other ways to measure your success that don't involve the scale. Over time, you'll notice your energy starting to return. you'll notice you sleep better. you'll notice you get fewer colds. you'll notice your clothes fitting better. these are all signs of improved good health and every bit as important as seeing that scale move.
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251 3/22/13 12:52 P
We have all slipped up now and again. The important thing is that you are recommitting yourself to your goals. Hang in there!!
3/22/13 12:46 P
This was my real first major fall from a generally very consistent effort using SP since last Sept. I just stopped going on the site and counting my calories a couple of weeks ago. For some reason I felt defiant and though I wasn't pigging out every day or anything, I could tell the calories were adding up day by day. I think I actually started believing I wasn't gaining weight - but of course I also stopped weighing myself too! I also stopped being so consistent with my exercise. Guess I am an "all or nothing" type of girl.
But enough of that. I know I've been down a little and distracted, but today I am starting over. I am not weighing myself just yet though - too afraid to see the actual facts staring me in the face. Maybe in a day or two. All I can do is start up right? Hopefully I didn't gain over the last couple of weeks everything I have lost since last Sept. Why did I do this to myself? Could it be related to fluctuating hormones as a result of impending menopause? My appetite has been all over the map lately.