You are working a lot, between your family and your job, no wonder you are feeling "not yourself" - stress, exhaustion, and having to look out for everyone else's needs before your own, it gets to a person!
Go easy on yourself.
And as for this: " I am sure people are wondering how do you not know you have gained 20lbs?" - I think pretty much everybody here at Spark can relate - we have ALL gained weight we didn't realize we were gaining. Me, well, i recognized the scale creeping upwards until it hit 200, and then i quit looking. You cannot believe how shocked I was to weigh in for the first time in a couple of years and discover i was 245. I truly honestly thought I'd been "hovering around 200, 210" and geared myself up for the psychological shock of potentially seeing 215... NOTHING could have prepared me to see 245! So uhm yes, I do not wonder at all how you gained 20 pounds without knowing - I gained 40! And honest to goodness did not realize.
However! You have now weighed in, you know where you're at, you've gone to the doctor to ensure any medical needs you may have, will be attended to, and you've found a really great community here at Spark. That's a great start!
2/19/13 6:55 P
It seems like I "start over" most Mondays. But this year I told myself that I have two years to lose 100 lbs. I gave myself several 'monthly' goals rather than a weight goal. For example in January my focus was to just track my food and cut the calories down to around 1650, in February my focus is to start aerobic exercise 3-4 times a week (working up to about :30 4 times a week). Then in March my focus will be to add strength training, in April add yoga, in May start creating more nutritous meals and planning better. So far I seem to be doing ok, except that the weekends are so busy that I slip up and don't get my exercise in or I forget to track a meal or I don't make a good meal choice. But I'm not giving up! I figure that if I am good monday through friday then the weekends will start to get better as I see results and want to keep my momentum going. That's my theory anyway. Good luck!
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2/19/13 2:52 P
You're being much too hard on yourself. I give all new members and those looking for motivation one piece of advice and it's this,"Don't look at good health or weight loss with an all or nothing mentality". If the only healthy thing you did for yourself was drink 8 glasses of water today, that's still a step in the right direction.
Instead of trying to do everything at once, take small steps literally and figuratively. set simple goals. Example, if you're not eating your veggies, set a goal to eat 2-3 servings each day for one week. If you're not drinking 8 glasses of water, set a goal to drink 2-4 glasses each day for one week. if you're not exercising don't try to do an hour a day, set a goal to take a 30 minute walk each day for one week. Once you've achieved these goals, then you set new ones.
No, "all or nothing". every little bit really does make a difference.
How does a person not notice a 20 pound gain ? This is something most of us here on spark have experienced. We become complacent. We get stuck in ruts. We don't think things are as bad as they are until something happens to jolt us out of our complacency. I'm sure you've been a busy mom taking care of two children. Many women tend to take care of everyone else and not themselves.
Now, you've had some medical issues that have caused you to think a bit more about your own health. As a result, that ten pounds you thought you gained turned out to be 20. these things happen. it doesn't make you a bad person. You know you want to make a change and that's what really matters.
So, why not set some simple goals for the week ? Don't wait til next week. start today. will you drink more water ? Will you eat more veggies ? Will you take the stairs instead of the escalator ? If so, you've started your journey towards improved health.
Be patient with yourself and your body. I'm going to be very honest with you. As we age, it does get harder to lose. So, if it took you six months to gain the weight, it's going to take at least that long (if not longer) to take it off.
Here's something I learned from my own years of yo yo dieting and it's this,"the faster you take the weight off, the faster it packs back on". Take the weight off slowly and it stays off.
Don't worry ! Everything will be fine. Just start slowly so that you're not overwhelmed.
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25 2/19/13 1:30 P
I just need motivation.... I was once very fit and surprisingly as much as I work out now I am not very fit currently... I have gained 20 pounds in 6 months and am having some issues with my body and other ailments. I posted the follwing in another message board... since i have done this before I am not sure why I am having so much trouble this time... here is what I posted: I have come and gone with Sparkpeople several times. I used to do Babyfit when I was pregnant with my daughter and found it very helpful but that was 8 years ago. I lost all my weight after her then got pregnant with my son. Now he is five and I have lost and gained lost and gained lost and gained... I am sure some of you know that roller coaster. I am almost 38 now and I went to the doctor yesterday because I have not been myself in the last several months, been tired and I also went to see her because my lower back has been bothering me. Not only that but my asthma has been acting up tremendously. And at night is it worse, I am using my inhaler more then I should. Well, come to find out I have gained 20 lbs since I saw her 6 months ago. I am sure people are wondering how do you not know you have gained 20lbs? Well I didn't I thought it might be 10 but not 20!!!! I workout 5 times a week and really do watch what I eat, and I am not one to say when I am watching what I eat ..."yea, I watch it go into my mouth". I really do take notice of what I have eaten and where I need to cut back. I just want some help but what is funny is I know what I need to do as I have done it before,!! Before kids I was in awesome shape and was almost on my way to competitions at one point. But now I am always hungry. I eat fruit and vegetables (though I could eat more veges) ...I just get bored with food easily and I am a busy mom of 2. I work 40-46 hrs a week and at night I work out, and I as I mentioned I have 2 young children. Any advice or bits of encouragement are appreciated!! Thanks for reading and listening :-)