I was happy with my weight loss, size, energy, motivation until I was referred to the ER w/dangerously high blood pressure which began a change in and beginning of existing and new medications to lower the BP. Now I have re-gained all my weight and then some. I have no energy, no motivation and I hate the way I no longer fit in the CUTE (tho inexpensive) clothing I purchased at my lower weight. I have no desire to exercise, let alone get out of bed. My depression has returned, the weather is lousy and I know longer care about what I eat or drink. There is no hope of discontinuing new meds or losing gained weight. I have no desire to go out in the cold and run, walk or any other physical activity. My house is no warmer than outside; it is not practical for me to spend outrageous $$ to heat a house w/very little insulation, no floor insulation and single pane, aluminum frame windows. Facing family and financial crises that go hand-in-hand. Selling items to meet cost of special education and moving to reduce expenses. Yes, I know depression plays a huge part in how I feel, and I know not to trust 'feelings'. Weight loss isn't even really an issue right now. Would be nice and may help w/motivation and outlook, however, it will not change the 'big picture' I am looking at. No need for platitudes, gotta have something more for this one.
- 12/27/2012 3:06:39 PM