After reading all the comments from all you LOVELY women, I realized that I am working out and exercising for ALL the wrong reasons. Why? Because I've been doing it for the GUY in my life....so I would look trim, sexy, appealing and so on. I can NOT do this for that reason. I have to do this for ME and ME only! In fact, I just broke this relationship off after THREE years....and believe me, this is VERY hard. Now I seem to not care at ALL if I exercise or workout.....well, that is, until NOW. I need this for ME. For MY self-esteem, for MY health, for ME and ME only. The only hard part for me now will be that I go to a local gym three times a week and workout with HIM....the one I just broke off with. Now I don't want want to go.
I STILL need to go for ME. I have to find some way of dealing with seeing him and NOT caring if he is there or not. I now want and NEED to do this for ME. I know I will find that help here and I am SO glad I found this site. THANK YOU to ALL of you for such WONDERFUL encouragement and a place to come to for US....to learn how to workout and exercise because we WANT to for US. What a blessing!!!
- 4/12/2008 2:15:27 PM