SparkPeople help me get back on track. Seeing the breakdown of what I consume at each meal and how it shapes my day, helps me stay honest and real with myself. After about one week I feel lighter, I have more energy, and my aches and pains have subsided. My body is changing. Even with a five pound weight loss, calculated today, I feel smaller and lighter, as if my body has changed dramatically, which it hasn't! It reminds me of how attached I've grown to my obese body. My padding has been a buffer. I have felt formidable and large, when in fact I am short and small boned, under my padding. Losing weight frees me, the me I feel is inside the obese me, but the small person me feels very vulnerable and scared sometimes. My obesity has been the portable, personal hiding place. It feels like a great accomplishment, when it doesn't feel like an obstacle. Maybe others have felt this way too. So, I'm just trying to be gentle and kind to myself so I can stay on track, because the bottom line is I feel great!
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