Thank you for your thought-provoking ideas, Mike.
I will admit, I had to think about it for a minute when you posed the question, "what motivates you?" I am new to Spark People and have spent the last hour or so setting goals and writing motivational phrases for myself. I set my goals based on events like an upcoming cruise, clothing like that cute white suit I bought 20 pounds ago that I only wore once because it barely fit when I got it and competition like my sister in law who can't weigh an ounce more than 120 pounds.
But are these motivations really enough? Do they get to the root of who I am and create lasting, substantive change? They must not, because I am still fat.
My children motivate, yes. I know they love me just as much at 186 pounds as they would if I weighed 140. I know they love cuddling up on my somewhat squishy chest and tummy. And I know they will always look up to me in one way or another, simply because I am their mother. But will they fail to live life to the fullest because I didn't set an example for them? When my daughter is 28 years old like me, will she feel the same shame I feel when I see a photo of myself or go shopping for a new pair of pants? I hope and pray not. Because I want my children to be the best, most confident, most productive people they can be and change the world -- because I know they can -- I must show them how.
Just as I know my daughters have the potential to do great things, I know that I have the potential to do great things, too. I am not living up to that potential now. And for some unknown reason my weight and the way I feel about myself affect the energy I emit and the way I relate to the world.
So, what motivates me? It is the power I now is locked inside that I must release before I can do what I am supposed to do in this life. It is my untapped ability to make others happy to motivate them to live their best life and be their best self.
If 41 pounds is all that stands between me and that kind of influence, then bring it on.
- 6/26/2014 6:46:18 PM